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Taking the Plunge & Starting a “Real Business”

Long-time readers may have observed that recently my rate of writing has decreased massively, and same for the effort I put into my posts. I also have stopped posting YouTube videos.

In fact, I’m not gonna lie- a lot of my old posts (especially from a year ago) make me cringe so much that I have seriously considered deleting them.

By not watching those videos or reading those blog posts, I’ve saved myself from my own cringe and thus have left them up, both for those that could extract value from it and as a testament to my own growth.

I’ve hinted at this before, but the reason why I’ve stopped writing so much is because I’m focused on starting a legitimate business now. And I don’t want to talk about it.

Seriously, shoot me in the balls then the brain if I start writing more about this new business that I’m starting.

One of the things my ex said of me that really stung was that I was “more talk than do.” It stung because it was true.

I was just a talker. Talking about the theory of business. Talking about the theory of marketing. The idea of getting wealth and all that crap.

For a moment I believed my own bullshit. But with the help of her truth and an icy reality check in which all my friends started making wayyy more than me, I couldn’t deny it:

I was a talker. Not a do-er.

I started out over 2 years ago way ahead of the curve. I was doing better than everyone I knew at this online marketing stuff.

But I became complacent and started talking about ideas & success, and getting too caught up with the “4 hour work week” instead of actually finding work that I was passionate about and committing to excellence.

It often felt like something was missing in my life, and I never realized that it was because I wasn’t committed to excellence in any area of my life. Working more not from a place of avoiding pain but of legitimate commitment to excellence has been one of the greatest things for my mental health.

Anyways, in the past couple years I went from being #1 of my social circle to last. Even those that were “not smarter” than me blew me away financially.

While I was stuck checking my budget when it comes to accommodation and searching for the cheapest flights, my friends could fly first class and get luxurious accommodation in first world countries.

Now I’m not saying here that I have started this new “real business” just to compete with my friends- that’s silly.

I’ve always wanted to start it. I’ve always wanted to do “real shit.” I just made excuses and got trapped in all kinds of other distractions.

My ex-girlfriend was one of those distractions and that’s no fault of her own. I didn’t have my own sense of self in the relationship, and so she became too important to me. Instead of taking alone time to work on my purpose, sheand the relationship became my purpose which was so unhealthy for both of us and unfair to her.

I’ve always been inspired to run Facebook Ads and get really, really good at them.

When I first ran my own online ads in 2016 they were a complete disaster. I spent like $75 just to make $15.

Then in 2017 I ran my own ads again while in Montreal. Surprisingly they were profitable for like the first $20- I sold a couple T-shirts online which was insanely exciting.

At that time I didn’t have a deep understanding of Facebook Ads though, and so I made some mistakes with the advertisements that led to their demise. I was tight on cash in Montreal as I was saving up for some medical treatment, and never ran ads for this business again despite it always being in my mind.

After Montreal I traveled through Europe, and let myself get too distracted by alcohol and fun and parties. It was probably a necessary thing I had to go through as I had never felt so socially connected and had so much fun in my life.

The downside to this was that I burnt down previous client relations. I vividly recall not having any WiFi in Belgium and having to frantically work to make a deadline.

In Budapest when I had WiFi again I discovered that my ads I made for this client were so awful and filled with English mistakes you would’ve thought I was an Indian scammer. It was embarrassing. I fixed the situation but the client relationship was burnt and I never received more work from them.

It was in early 2018 in Bulgaria when the stagnation really began, and thus my temporary decline. For whatever reason I stopped trying to get new clients. I made a little from Cryptocurrency investments (remember when BTC was blowing up??) but that was it.

I also had little concept of “taxes” and no clue how they worked. When it came time to pay my 2017 taxes in 2018, I thought I could write off many of the medical expenses I had- turns out my understanding of taxes was wrong, and I owed thousands to the government.

I was able to pay it, but I was complacent in replenishing my reserves. Things got dangerous when I started to spend too much in Bulgaria. Again this was me getting distracted on my relationship- I was spending too much on her and on myself and to make it very clear it was not her fault but my own.

Then when I left for Cyprus, I found myself unable to adjust to the currency exchange of Euros compared to Lev. Things were 2x more expensive, but I was too complacent to adjust my living.

It was quite unwise and I really lacked a concept of how difficult it would be to get new clients- I had gone too long in “easy mode.”

I didn’t realize it then, but I learned an important life lesson then (which you should write down):

Never, ever become complacent.

You can observe in governments, celebrities, and large corporations that they have a great product/service but then things get “too good” and they lose their roots with what originally made them successful.

They ride the wave of success, but because they’re not doing what originally made them successful their downfall is inevitable.

I was lucky to not fall completely- I always had a client which was supporting me (which was more of a remote job, to be honest).

The great mistake I made was forgetting my roots in 2018. However I should add it wasn’t all bad as I was fixing my health and social life, areas which had always lacked as well. It was likely a necessary stage in my development.

Backstory aside, here’s what happened next.

I had a big mental crash in late 2018 as my finances were tight, my relationship had ended, and I felt really crushed in Thailand. When I went back to the USA for a while I found more work and began to actually take shit seriously.

The crash served as a stark reminder to not lose my way ever again.

In fact, I now understand why you have to do what makes you feel passionate or gives value to others. When things get “good,” you get complacent if you aren’t doing something that you love.

This is so important you NEED to understand it.

You MUST find something you love or learn to be passionate about it, otherwise you will become lazy when things get “good.” You will sacrifice becoming great for being good.

The thing is, good never lasts. Being great as an ever-evolving art which takes daily practice.

Good can last a day, week, month, or even years but ultimately good runs out. Only those committed to excellence and being a great survive.

Now that I’ve understood this, I’ve made it my commitment to become excellent in Facebook Ads, stop making excuses, and focus on serving clients rather than trying to print wealth off of the internet.

Whereas before the internet marketing felt dark & scammy, it now feels like a moral pursuit because I’m focused on legitimately giving value to my clients.

For the past several months I’ve been taking action on starting a REAL business. And I don’t intend on doing a lot of writing about it because it already takes up so much of my time I have no time or care to write (especially because this writing isn’t profitable).

Step 1: Skill Development

First I developed my skills for free. I could’ve told Facebook Ads but I decided to work for clients for free or heavily discounted rates.

Financially I’m okay because I have a remote job in which I provide social media + content creation (like writing) which is a great job that I love. I also met this client in Texas in person after 2 years of working together, and we had a blast so I’m really committed to giving value now.

Because I am okay I was able to focus on skill development. It was hard at first, but I knew more than I could imagine.

Very quickly my skills became validated as I was able to acquire leads for clients at a low cost per lead. For 2 realtors I was getting good results, and the same for a software development agency.

However I realized a problem: clients didn’t value my work when it was free and often lacked the follow-through to get results off of my work.

I was able to get them leads, but they weren’t able to close the leads. This is because they had pre-existing beliefs about Facebook Ads that were negative, or they themselves were too complacent.

For example, the software agency was getting leads from me at $1.69 per lead. Given their services are extremelyexpensive, they only needed to close something like .25% (1 in 400) of the leads to still be racking in a massive profit.

Yet they ignored my advice about Email marketing followup, and contacting the leads within 24 hours or same-day. The CEO was lazy about is sales and had investor funding, so they weren’t sharp.

He complained that some of the leads forgot about them. I said, “no shit that’s what fucking happens when you contact the leads 5 DAYS AFTER I GET THEM.”

Noting that clients are lazy, I’ve made adjustments to the lead generation system so that clients get only the highest quality leads. 99% of people are not cut-out to be salesmen, and so I had to do a lot of the qualification myself.

My new advertising system helps to prequalify leads so that clients are only talking with leads that are the most qualified and warm to boost their morale.

Even when the results were so great they only needed to close 1 out of 400 leads to be massively profitable, clients were still upset that they had 10 rejections in a row.

Anyways, I realized that charging my clients was the way to go because then they’d take my advice seriously and I could invest more of my time to developing the pre-qualification system so that clients don’t waste time on leads which could blow up their sensitive egos.

Skill development? Check.

Step 2: Web Development

In Bali & Chiang Mai I created my own website, which you can view by clicking HERE. It is

The website isn’t perfect, and I’ve received a ton of amazing feedback from ya’ll about what could be improved. Thank you!

The most important part about the website is that it builds credibility and acts as an online portfolio. Even more important than that I’ve created an extensive application process that new prospects have to go through before they can even get on the phone with me.

I’ve had prospects apply but they don’t meet my qualifications. Great. I was able to cancel the call before it even began and save myself time.

Again the website is absolutely not perfect. However it’s “good enough” and that’s all I need to move forward. I’ll adjust it as needed.

Step 3: Testimonials

Next I wanted to collect testimonials from clients that I had legitimately served. I am not satisfied with my current list of testimonials- I want to help more clients and get more testimonials from even better results, but for the time being what I have is “good enough.”

One realtor created a video for me saying I “over-exceeded his expectations by far… Thank you Michael!

I’ve also created case studies of clients that I’ve helped. Examples include getting leads at $1.69 per lead, getting 400k+ page likes and making the client #1 in the niche, and getting a 17x ROI on some Amazon Ads.

Did you know I’ve also successfully worked with Owange Pranks, the #1 prank YouTube channel in the world?

Click the link “Ownage Pranks” for the case study. Being a long-time fan I was always super pumped to work with them and receive the testimonial, “Michael’s expertise has been quintessential in getting us on the right track.”

All this being said, I’m not satisfied with any of this. I want more testimonials, better results, and one day a giant catalog of videos on my website of happy clients.

One day I want so many testimonials that I have to delete all these testimonials because they aren’t good enough.

For example the realtor testimonial feels slightly fake because he ended up deciding not to cancel the contract once I requested payment. He was happy to give the testimonial and help me out, but not happy enough to stick around long-term.

For the time being it’s all good- but like I said I have my goals for a true list of happy testimonials.

Step 4: Biting My Own Words

Most advertising agencies are full of shit and you can confirm this because they don’t even run their own advertisements!

Who the fuck would I be to run ads for clients but not for myself?

Right now I don’t have the greatest budget, but I’ve ran ads regardless. I’m investing my own cash even though I don’t have a ton and that’s because I know I can get myself results.

No more excuses. I’m doing what I’ve always wanted to do for years now.

Today I woke up and finally got almost all preliminary metrics within KPI, which stands for “key performance indicator.” It’s a fancy way of saying that I’m on track to be printing off clients off of Facebook Ads.

Step 5: Facing Uncertainty

I’m not gonna lie though- there were some emotional moments during the course in which my ads ran.

On one night I got results that were around $1.70 per lead and I was so excited that I couldn’t sleep all night. Then no one opened my Emails (but a few leads) from Email marketing, and my “free course” basically accomplished nothing.

When I created a revised funnel, I felt uneasy about my ads.

I found it quite difficult to not be super emotional about the advertisements. I doubted myself, questioned whether what I was doing was right, and wondered whether I was good enough.

There were times when I opened my ads dashboard and I just wanted to scream and cry because I wasted the budget to get something like $50 per lead- and then the automation system was fucked up so I wasn’t even able to nurture the lead, making the cash lost!

Another time I screwed up a code which meant that the Facebook Ads dashboard was reporting my results were exceptional when in fact I had 0 results. A whole day’s worth of budget was lost, which I think was just $15 or $20… but still.

During every step of the process of fixing my ads, my website, and my funnel I had to relax and not freak out from the fact that it felt like I was tossing my hard-earned money into a black void.

I had to relax, and diagnosis the problem carefully. Sometimes my targeting was off. Sometimes my ad copy was not good.

When I learned finally to see the situation objectively, I found it quite easy to fix my ads. Instead of ads “failing” they were simply “out of KPI” for various metrics, and then I was able to fix those issues.

For example, maybe an advertisement was receiving clicks to the landing page but no one was converting. Well it was either the landing page which needed fixing or the advertisement was misleading.

In this case the advertisement I had created was misleading, and it didn’t fit well with the landing page.

I then deleted the advertisement and created some new ones, and the results started pouring in!

Today as I said I got all of the preliminary metrics within KPI. Now I’m ready for a larger-budget test, but first I have to fix some of the other parts of my funnel.

Step 6: Creating + Fixing the Funnel

The exact strategy I’d use for clients is what I’m using for myself. It is an advanced funnel that pre-qualifies the leads and limits the number of bad leads I have coming into my system.

I went from $1.70 per lead to $10 per lead, but now they’re much higher-quality, my email marketing emails are being opened, etc.

It’s calculated that I could spend as much as $15 per lead as long as they’re qualified and still make a massive profit, so I’m doing just fine.

My current funnel involves sending a prospect from my ad to a landing page, then they have to input their Email in order to get access to a free video.

The free video is intended to excite people about my services, and from there they can apply for a “free strategy session” with me. This isn’t the landing page, but if you were interested in my services you could apply HERE.

Once they apply for the free strategy session they have to fill out an extensive application that allows me to prequalify them. I only want to be on the phone with leads that are ready to buy.

If they don’t schedule a strategy session, the Email marketing system will send them an invitation to the free strategy session and then if they don’t they’ll be taken through a lengthy automation sequence which is a series of Emails over the course of 2-3 weeks.

I created a free course which I’ve turned into an Email automation sequence! The goal is to warm people up and give free value, which then will excite them to schedule that free strategy session.

Step 7: Moving Forward

I’m super excited for this “real business” as instead of me working kind of like a glorified job remotely I’ll actually be helping clients. The skills are validated, I have positive testimonials, now I just need to fix this process and then the sky’s the limit (and not even).

As soon as I get a new client all of those funds will be reinvested into my ads. Once I have the process for generating & closing leads via my Facebook Ads (which I’m quite close to achieving) things should “explode” via the “Law of Explosions” (based on my previous post).

Right now I don’t have the system perfected, but I will soon. As soon as the system is working and I have extra funds to invest into it things will really get going.

I’m working on setting up other processes and getting organized, as disorganization is a huge problem of mine that I’ve observed as well as all of my friends have reported on as well.

With organization I’ve estimated both an income cap and a client cap that I can personally achieve until I have to start hiring help. That’s a problem for another day.

It’s Hard, Yet Easy

I’ve accepted the challenges of starting a real business, such as investing my own funds, embracing difficulty, and having to learn online phone sales.

In a way it’s hard. There’s a lot of work to do. On the other hand, I realize that as soon as I get it right it’ll be “easy” and things will just explode.

I have realized that many of the income goals I’ve set are too short because as soon as this system is perfected of signing on new high-ticket clients from my ads there will really be no limit to how many clients I can sign on.

If my goal was to 3x my income, well that’s just too small because as soon as I do that I can invest all the additional funds into ads to sign on new clients, etc. This process will really explode until I need to hire help and cap out my max work.

This is It

That’s all. I just wanted to share and announce to the world my goals and what I’m currently working on. If I write too much about this, call me out and make sure I stay focused. Shoot me in the mouth if I talk too much. Not literally, please.

I have talked too much for too long, and the only reason I’m writing this now is because it’s more of a report than just talk.

There are legitimate results which I’ve earned the right to talk about now. I am currently averaging around $10 per lead, and a 1 in 3 open rate for my post-lead Email marketing. I have spent hundreds in my own advertising, and actually biting the bullet I’m selling to others.

I won’t be writing that much from here on out for the reason that this is my purpose, and writing is not a profitable activity. It’s not even that enjoyable anymore. I am kind of cringing at this post just for the fact that it’s like an hour of writing that doesn’t move me closer to my goals in any way.

My mission is to become exceptional with online ads, service clients and get astounding results for them, and scale this up and start hiring people.

I’m finally doing what I’ve always wanted to do, and it feels great.

Here’s to taking the plunge and doing some real shit!



Energetic Spirals & the Wave of Fortune

Have you ever had a day, week, or month where literally everything seemed to be going just perfectly?

First you close some extra business deals, then you get a girlfriend/boyfriend, then you get a free dinner for no reason…

Such occurrences can be observed on the micro level (minutes or hours) or on the macro (months). It can also be observed for little things such as getting a free coffee, or big things such as job promotions and dating.

Furthermore these occurrences are both positive or negative.

I was blessed to have been exposed to energetic-related books at a younger age and study this, and now I’ve been able to observe it in my own life and others.

It’s really freaky how it truly is a law of the Universe that things form energetic spirals.

Let me start by giving some examples of energetic spirals from my own life. You will soon be able to see the spirals in your own life.

Case Study 1: “Law of Explosions”

Something I may have written about a couple years ago is something I called “The Law of Explosions.” I can’t remember whether this was published, but I definitely observed this Law in Montreal.

Basically what I had noticed in my life up to that point was that I often saw that I’d have no results in a particular area of life, but then suddenly it would feel that overnight I would have all of the results in the world.

I first observed this in business. I would have no clients, and then suddenly I’d have more clients and work than I knew what to do with.

The time it took to close my first deal was quite some time, but the time it took to close my second, third, and fourth was significantly less.

When I went to Montreal and later Bulgaria I observed this “Law of Explosions” in my social and dating life as well.

First I’d have no friends and be completely new to the city. I’d put in a ton of effort into meeting a lot of people. I would not be invited to things.

Then seemingly one day I’d wake up and I’d feel like a mini celebrity. I’d be getting recognized on the streets, have more social invitations than I could imagine, and feel great socially.

In dating this effect is particularly pronounced. One day you have no girls, next thing you know you have more girls than you know what to do with!

In fact I even wrote a long post about this, but I haven’t published it yet because it might sound a bit too egoic and goes into some other interesting stuff such as NoFAP…

The short version is that I observed dating followed the same pattern in every single city:

First you have no partners. You have no dates. You have to put in a ton of effort, and nothing really comes of it. The first few dates in a new city almost always suck.

Then you meet someone with whom you connect a bit more deeper with. That’s great, and most people stop there. If you keep going you’ll meet exponentially more people that you connect with, and have more dating partners than you can possibly imagine.

What was this “Law of Explosions?” Why was it that everything seemed to explode out of nowhere whether financially, socially, or in dating?

I was onto something with the “Law of Explosions,” but it would take another year until I actually discovered what it was.

Case Study 2: The Breakdown of Everything

In Mid-2018 when I had to leave Bulgaria for visa reasons, I entered more of a victim, docile state and stopped participating with so much effort in life.

Not just one area of my life suffered- everything seemed to suffer.

First my finances started sucking. I had to work really hard to try to find another client. I was unprepared for Cyprus, and especially the cost difference compared to Bulgaria.

Suddenly my relationship began to fall apart as we fought more and more, and me and my ex could not handle the distance. Boundaries were crossed.

I was alone, I felt alone, and I didn’t ask for help when I needed it. Instead of taking massive action, I rode this energetic downward spiral until the end of 2018.

At the end of 2018 everything had seemingly fallen apart for me. The relationship which was previously so magical was dead and left me shattered, my finances were less than ideal as I would have massive taxes to make up on, and I felt more lost than ever.

Everything is Connected – Quantum Entanglement

During each energetic spiral the strange truth that everything is connected in life became quite apparent.

There was no such thing as finances falling apart while relationships were maintained, and vice versa. While some areas of life received a greater impact (ie. total relationship destruction), other areas subsequently suffered in the meantime as well.

It’s very rare that I’ve observed one area of my life going amazing while everything else sucks.

I’m sure that it’s possible with others, however I haven’t really observed that. In general what I observe in people is that a couple areas of their life are going great, and other areas are going well.

It’s less common to see someone that has one area which is doing absolutely amazing and others which are doing completely awful, but it is possible.

What is Happening Here?

This effect can be coined “Energetic Spirals,” and when things are going well the “Wave of Fortune.” You can read more about it in “Reality Transurfing Steps I-V.”

When something goes well and you feel great, you attract more great things into your life which creates a self-fulfilling prophecy so things continue to go well.

The same can be true for when things go bad, if you let it be so. Something goes wrong, you get upset, and then things continue to go wrong.

For example, I recently returned to Bulgaria from Thailand and everything seemed to go wrong.

I got sick. I couldn’t eat. I was heartbroken again for a week. My laptop also decided to fail me, so I had to purchase a new one. The culture shock was more than I could’ve imagined. My muscles had become tight.

You have to be careful about energetic spirals because they are sneaky, both in the positive and the negative. Most people are completely unaware of them and unfortunately ride negative spirals downward.

Energetic Spirals, Decoded

Why this happens I can’t even be 100% for sure.

On the logical level when something good happens your brain’s focusing system begins to focus on more good, which makes you positive. When you’re positive other people receive good feelings which makes them more likely to serve you and continue to give you good things.

Imagine if someone just started screaming at you at work today for no reason. You probably won’t respond positively.

What’s probably happening there is the angry person had something bad happen to them, and so they’re in an angry mood. Because they’re angry they begin to attract more angry events onto themselves.

I think that many people get trapped in these energetic spirals without even realizing it.

People say “The world is an angry, mean place,” and then they go about life treating everyone like shit, and then their reality gets confirmed because no one likes being around that person!

I believe that there’s also an energetic component, in that certain events are literally attracted to you when you are sustaining certain vibes for extended periods of time.

Riding the Wave of Fortune

The great news with this is that when things are going well, it’s easy to ride the wave of fortune and continue to attract greatness into your life.

All you have to do is to continue to mentally replay the great events that have happened recently, and actively express gratitude to others, yourself, and to the Universe/God/whatever.

The gratitude brings you closer to the good things which happened, and mentally replaying it helps you feel better and believe more in the goodness of the world.

Now you can ride the waves of fortunes!

Avoiding Pitfalls

The hard part is not falling for traps when something doesn’t go perfectly as planned. When things go wrong, it’s important to maintain a clear vision, and keep your brain positive otherwise you can activate a downward spiral.

That doesn’t mean you should deny your negative emotions. Cry & release if you feel sad. If you’re angry go for an intense workout, or channel it into a creative pursuit.

The important thing here is to not channel your negative energy into yourself or into others. It’s okay to ask for help, but don’t channel anger into random people or those around you, for example.

It’s also critical to avoid a “victim mindset.” It’s all too easy to fall trap into thinking that you’re a victim and the world is against you.

I’ve observed this within myself to be even more subtle. In my case my ego will maintain a facade of control & responsibility, but it’ll replay a mental story in my mind of how everything fell apart.

The mental story will be about how things were great, and then things fell apart. The mental story will repeat itself over and over.

The key thing in the story is that it is unconscious and happening suddenly in my mind. Things are happening “to me” and not “for me or with me or because of me.”

When this happens you have to consciously take control of the story and say, “Yes, this happened, but now THIS is going to happen.” Then you have to take massive action into making that thing happen.

Basketball Study

There was a study done in which professional and non-professionals had to shoot basketballs into a hoop.

First they did so in silence, and this served as collecting a benchmark for this person’s skill. For example, they may have scored 5/10 baskets, 6/10, etc.

Then the group of people were split into two groups. One group would have a crow that boo’d them and told them they sucked as they shot the basket. The other group would have a cheering, great crowd.

As expected the people with the cheering crowd did a bit better always. This is why it’s important to have people that support you and love you for who you are.

The other group of people had a crowd which actively put them down during the basketball shot.

A strange thing happened: some people become worse, whereas others did not get worse at all!

What the researchers uncovered was that some people were affected more by the negative crowd than others. Those that allowed the crowd to control their emotions performed worse.

On the other hand, those who were professional and were used to adversity were able to channel the negativity into an energy which worked for them, or drown it out entirely with focus.

In the same way this is how we overcome downward spirals- we acknowledge that the negative energy exists, but we don’t let it drag us down.

Sadness, anger, rage, hatred, lethargy, and all the negative emotions sometimes come about.

The important thing is to consciously acknowledge it, then focus on your objective anyways. If you feed into it then you will activate a downward spiral.

When you feel a good emotion you are allowed to indulge in it, not so much so that your happiness turns into pride, but indulging in such a way where that you are actively expressing your gratitude for this thing happening. This attracts more goodness, helps you perform better, and thus the wave of fortune gets activated.

Leverage in Life

To really understand energetic spirals you must observe them in your own life and others.

When things have gone wrong in the past, see if it let to things going more wrong as you indulge in the negative emotions and let it drag you down.

When things have gone well, try to reflect and recall if any other things went especially well in the hours, days, and weeks following the good event.

The first step to leveraging energetic spirals in life is to observe them. Once you can observe them and confirm their reality, then you are ready to leverage them.

When you can properly leverage energetic spirals by releasing negative energy and embracing positive energy, you can grow at an exponentially faster rate.

Decoding Energetic Spirals in Social Life

As an example, here’s a decoded energetic spiral in social life.

First I would have nothing in a new city. I’d have to put in a lot of energy in order to meet new people. The results would be little.

Over time though an exponential upward curve would begin to take place. On week 1 I’d have 1 friend, on week 2 I’d have 3, on week 3 I’d have 8, on week 4 I’d have 25, so on and so forth.

As you can see in that made-up example the increase every week was not linear. I did not gain a single friend every single week. Often what happens is I’d go from one friend to exploding over the course of a month.

Of course in this particular example you are limited to what you can socially handle, so eventually the exponential curve evens out once I hit my max.

The reason this happens is because when you don’t have social abundance it’s very hard to get more social abundance. It’s easier to get what you already have.

As soon as you make one friend, you can go to a party with that friend and meet all of their friends. Once you’ve met all of their friends, one of their friends will have several more friends to introduce you to.

The hardest part is finding that one friend to take you to a social event. Once you have that, everything “explodes” via the “Law of Explosions.”

Rich Get Richer…

If you look up the wealth map of various individuals, you’ll see that their wealth often follows a similar pattern. It explodes exponentially over time, and this is due to the Wave of Fortune that they have learned to ride!

Leveraging Spirals & Waves of Fortune

I have previously described how to leverage spirals & waves of fortune.

In short you must not get attached to negative events and never develop a victim mindset.

When things go well be grateful and replay those positive events over and over in your mind.

Take massive action towards creating a positive future (but do it in the now) and you’ll be more likely to activate a wave of fortune.

Once you activate a wave of fortune, keep putting in massive action and don’t become complacent.

What often happens in companies and governments (and even relationships) is that a lot of effort is made, but then when things are good the company/government stops trying and loses their grounding. They then crash and lose the wave of fortune.

As long as you stay committed to putting in the effort, your results in whichever area of your life will grow exponentially.

You will create more wealth, develop greater & higher-quality social circles, get a great dating life, and more.

The key is finding & riding the wave of fortune…

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Trapped Running Circles – Level of Energy

Since returning to Bulgaria, my level of energy has dropped drastically, and I’m not referring in my physical ability to get through the day (though that has dropped, also).

A great book called “Power vs. Force” details the various “degrees of energy” you could live at, ranging from low-level energetic patterns such as anger (force) vs. high-level energetic patterns such as reason (power).

They even have a system of calibrating various energy levels of people, groups, and ideas, though you can judge their methodology yourself.

On the low level of the spectrum we have energetic patterns which calibrate low such as guilt, fear, and anger.

There is a “critical line” at the 200 mark- the author believes that this is the critical tipping point from living a life of destruction/taking and actually giving value.

Before Thailand I would say that I calibrated above 200, anywhere between Courage & Willingness. This is an average calibration.

You can have multiple flows of energy inside of you, what matters is how stable it is and what your average is. For example fluctuating between shame & love would not be quite enjoyable.

You can have bits of shame, guilt, and apathy inside of you while simultaneously hold anger, courage, and willingness. The net average of these energies creates your calibration, which will greatly influence the way you experience the world as well as your degree of fulfillment.

I don’t know why, but since returning to Bulgaria my “level of energy” has dropped drastically, and I’d say it’s been often calibrating somewhere along the lines of anger!

It’s been really hard for me to return to Bulgaria for a variety of reasons.

I’ve been nervous to see my ex, devastated by seeing her (both in terms of anger and pain about the relationship split), and especially struggling with the adjustment to Europe after months spent living in Asia!

Regardless though, these are just excuses, and I have to be careful not to fall into a “victim” level of energy pattern which would certainly calibrate below the critical 200 point.

What scares me though is that I’ve been bouncing back up very slowly- not at a fast enough rate, and it’s vastly negatively affected my reality!

First, I haven’t been hardly happy at all. The days have felt like a struggle to get past, and each day I’m just ready to get to the end.

My positive habits that I’ve had for months prior to returning to Bulgaria are a massive struggle to maintain.

Today for the first time in 9 or so months I forgot to meditate in the morning- that’s extremely weird when you consider I’ve been meditating for several months prior to this day!

My workouts have also been lazy and extra difficult. In the case of my last workout, I forgot to do it during the day and ended up having to do it before bed. I was collapsing with fatigue between each set, literally resting on the floor.

That’s not a one-off situation. It’s basically been like this since returning to Bulgaria…

I’ve struggled to make progress in business, and very quickly I’ve lost the ability to even remember just how aware and happy I was in Chiang Mai. It feels like a distant reality, yet at the same time it feels like yesterday…

I’m not sure how much of this is to blame with my encounter with my ex, or if it’s other memories of Bulgaria that are resurfacing. Regardless this is extremely dangerous as I’ve wrote before.

It also feels like a “pointless pain” because had I stayed in Chiang Mai I wouldn’t be going through any of this right now (in theory).

What’s really weird and a personal observation I’ve made is that due to the “law of attraction” you attract situations akin to your “level of energy.”

This is why I consciously recognize it’s extremely dangerous to remain in Bulgaria if my level of energy can’t change here- I will attract situations that are awful.

It gets worse. I already have attracted these situations…

Since arriving I became massively sick. I got more sick than I had been in a long while. After I got better, I began developing psychosomatic physical pains and muscle tightness.

I’ve struggled with walking, and right now the problem is my neck. It doesn’t matter where the pain is- stomach, neck, leg, whatever. Where it is is irrelevant because what the pain is is just a mental-emotional pain getting trapped in the body.

This happens during levels of energy patterns under anger as far as I know. Unconscious anger (which we shall call rage, which may actually be attributed to guilt) that doesn’t get expressed turns into legitimate physical pain by causing nervous system malfunctions & muscle tightness.

For more information on that, check out “The Great Pain Deception” by Steve Ozanich.

However in my experience it doesn’t end in rage. It can also happen when you don’t feel safe, when you live inauthentically, and when you need to cry but hold it back. Instead of feeling the emotion, you feel physical pain and forget it was the emotion that was the cause.

Anyways, back on track. I’ve already attracted some highly destructive situations into my life, and it doesn’t just have to do with my physical health.

Today I was crossing the road and quickly ran across. The car, driven by an old man, aggressively hit the accelerator to scare me.

I was already in a negative, angry mindset, so I spit at the car. I began to walk away but saw that he had stopped and gotten out. I turned around as he started to get back in the car, and took another spit just to prove the point.

He then got super angry but I was already off fast-walking and then jogging away. He had impeded traffic as he was on a main road (which could only have one car) and the whole encounter was pointless.

This situation might sound a bit comical, but it’s nothing “like me” at all recently! I’ve driven in dangerous Thailand on a motorbike and handled life/death situations with a smile on my face.

Most people would say that the driver was just an asshole, but I know that subconsciously we were energetically drawn to each other.

I’ve been in this exact situation once before, and once again it happened only when I was already in an extended state of anger. You simply attract more people to fight with, even if on the surface you don’t actually want to fight.

What’s even scarier is that the energetic pattern completely took over my consciousness. I should’ve just kept walking after the first spit, but instead, totally consumed by rage, I decided to get another spit right on his car just for good measure because he retaliated in the first place.

Your level of energy perpetuates itself. It wants to continue and continue to find situations to feed it, so you have to consciously try to let it go and slowly move up this ladder. Little adjustments into your level of energy drastically affect your life.

Some other things that have happened since coming back to Bulgaria is my phone (with a case) getting its screen shattered (the most unlucky drop), my laptop deciding not to connect to any new WiFi networks, and my laptop’s screen frame deciding to totally break off.

“Coincidences?” You tell me. Most “scientists” would state that all of these things are coincidences, but the fact is I’ve got a more destructive energy running through me.

My neck is so tight, my body hurts, my emotions feel bad (when I’m not feeling numb), I’ve over-exceeded my monthly budget already, and so much more. My level of energy has vastly dropped.

I intended for Bulgaria to be reuniting with friends and having fun, and judging it out to whether I could live here permanently in the future (as I’m deciding to live between Phoenix, Sofia, or Chiang Mai).

And I may have found my answer.

While these problems are not directly caused by Sofia herself, there’s something here (and I feel it’s not just my ex) that are triggering me and causing these negative emotional loops. Perhaps it’s even the vibe itself!

Whatever it is, and I don’t know for sure yet, my level of energy has dropped drastically which is dropping my quality of life, work productivity, and progress on all my goals. I’m energetically more in a destructive state than a productive state, so the fear that I have in staying here is legitimate.

If I can’t get out of this state and back into my happy old Thailand self, I’ll have to leave ASAP. Every day I’m considering buying a flight the next day because I know how energy dynamics work just enough to know that where I’m at now is dangerous for myself and those around me.

The question I can’t get over though is… why? My ex absolutely can’t be the cause of this, though it’s possible.

The crazy thing is to be honest this began in Thailand the day of the flight. I was feeling like my great, normal self until I got to the airport.

Immediately in the airport as well as Dubai airport I could feel my level of energy start to drop. I began to descend into a kind of anger and frustration more so than what I typically experience when I travel.

The struggle of adjustment is definitely a part of the pain, but the fact is I feel it would’ve been easier to show up into any other European country than Bulgaria!

I’ve even felt a negativity towards all humans. Paranoia and fear to meet some of my old friends, and anger for all kinds of various reasons despite interactions being positive and not half as bad as I imagined they would go.

While talking to a friend about this today, he reminded me that I was “free” and could go anywhere I wanted to. I don’t have to be somewhere I don’t like.

I then had an intuitive feeling (and thought): I don’t think I even want to be here.

Maybe it took me coming to Bulgaria to realize that, but it could be true that I simply don’t want to be here.

Another one of my entrepreneurial friends left for Finland. He reported being significantly more happy since leaving, one of the main reasons being that girls are “more normal” in the sense that parties are easier to have and girls less flaky.

I didn’t even realize he considered that until I randomly said “damn, girls are flaky here.” I had met a few girls even while my vibe is positive, but all of them have flaked (besides one with a boyfriend who would just want to meet as a group of friends).

This could be my level of energy, or… I wonder if it isn’t the vibe of the places affecting me more than I could’ve imagined.

People do crazy things to pack up and live around the world for various reasons. Perhaps the last time I was here Bulgaria was a level up from where I was, but now it’s a level down and thus dragging me down a bit.

I don’t know, man. All I know is that it’s been a shocking 9 days and tomorrow will be the 10th day. The time has flown by and I don’t feel good about that in any sense at all.

It feels that I am trapped, and as I’ve written before, I feel it is all pointless.

Whereas before there was a purpose to overcoming heartbreak and adversity, now I feel there is no reason to try to overcome this pain, making all the more dangerous & painful within me.

I overcame the pain of my ex. Seeing her triggered guilt, apathy, grie, fear, desire, and anger all at once though as well as other memories associated with Bulgaria and perhaps being here in general.

Why should I have to fight through this pain all over again when I’ve done everything to get past it in the first place?

The scariest part is seeing the manifestations of this negativity already. My laptop “coincidentally” falling apart. The encounter with the angry driver.

No, those weren’t coincidences. This is my average level of energy manifesting itself in reality which is a combination of victim mindset and anger (apathy & hate).

Occasionally holding in mind the image of Buddha or Tao or Jesus has helped me ease up, relax, and even let a few tears out (which may have increased my energetic level by 1-2 points), but I’ve still got quite a few ways to go.

Luckily for me a sensory deprivation float tank spa is offering a special deal in which I can get 10 floats for about $20 each for a single month, so I’ll probably buy a bundle pack and do a ton of back to back sensory deprivation float tanks to try relax from these energetic patterns.

As I say over and over, if my level of energy does not stabilize then I must be out of Bulgaria.

I guess the reason I keep writing that is really just as a reminder to myself and announcement to the world that I refuse to let my level of energy fall. I’ve made a ton of progress, and I won’t let myself fall back down.

What do you think of this post? What do you think caused my energy to drop, and how would you suggest increasing it?

And what do you think your level of energy is? See charge below:

Peace, -Michael