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2019 Reflections; 2020 Plans

2019 is coming to a close, and with that a new year: 2020.

For me this has been quite an incredible year, however included in the painting a few dark spots.

In this post I will publicly share some of my own reflections for 2019, and write about some plans/goals for 2020.

Feel free to reply with your own thoughts on this, as well as your own 2019/2020 stuff.

2019 Reflections

#1: Be Decisive– the worst thing you can do is be in a state of limbo.

If your heart gives you even the slightest hint as to what the “right” decision for you is, then just follow that.

In the end it doesn’t quite matter what decision you make, as you can always adjust as you move along.

If you make the “wrong” inauthentic decision, you can adjust course later. For example, if you decide to live in a city you end up not liking, you can always leave.

The only “wrong” decision you can make is not making a decision- of course you need to give yourself time to make the “right” decision, but there does come a point where you just need to act and deal with the consequences.

Don’t regret anything; just adjust course ASAP.

#2: Keep it Simple- How do you be decisive? By keeping it simple!

Define things into their simplest components possible. For example, earlier this year I was telling victim stories about a break up and bad visa situation. That never fixed the problem.

When you define things into their simplest components, the advice that you need to hear is often quite easy to see. You often don’t need to ask anyone for advice.

If you still need to ask for advice, you can more easily receive it. The more complex the story you tell, the lower the quality the advice you will receive.

#3: Enjoy Darkness– Even sad emotions have positive expressions.

When you give in and surrender to your emotions, you can experience them fully which helps you release them.

Bad emotions give you lessons, and by feeling those emotions you ensure that you don’t get stuck in a loop of repeating your problems over and over.

There’s also a positive expression of each emotion, though we aren’t often taught that:

  • Anger – workout
  • Sadness – write poetry, redefine your life
  • Depression – workout and work on expression
  • Anxiety – an opportunity to overcome fear

#4: Reflect More– Seriously.

When you just sit down, journal, go for a walk, jog, whatever and give your mind time to sort itself out, it often does. You will know what you need to do.

Do not derp on social media, YouTube, drugs, etc. (it’s okay to do, but if you need answers in your life you’ve gotta embrace the pain that boredom carries with it until answers come).

#5: Everything in Moderation– including moderation.

In life there is yin & yang, left and right. Don’t get jammed on one side, though sometimes it’s definitely more ideal to stick to one side.

For example, you need to embrace reality but also be spiritual. Create wealth but also create spiritual wealth. If you get jammed on one side, you end up “needing” the other (ie. the poor yoga instructor, OR the hollow wealthy man).

However this balancing of opposites is not always absolute; for example, it’s generally wiser to lean to the side of health than the lack thereof.

#6: Just do what makes you happy– stop saying “should.”

Granted it doesn’t hurt anyone else, just do it.

You need to figure out for yourself what makes YOU happy, then just do it, without getting stuck in habits, routines, “shoulds,” ego, or pressure from family or friends or society, etc.

Life is simple. When you keep things simple, and define what you want, the steps to get it become rather simple.

It’s just easier to stay in routine than to repeat this reflection process, but it’s important you stick to it.

#7: Meditation is amazing.

I’ve now meditated almost every day for over a year- and the benefits are obvious.

It’s helping with the whole “clarity & simplicity” mindset I have. I’m also judging others way less, letting go of my former arrogance, and taking action in reality instead of in my mind.

Other 2019 Reflections?

I had several others, but I felt like these 7 would be the most benefit to y’all. Now here are some things I’d like to do in 2020.

2020 Objectives

#1: Long-term Conscientiousness.

I’d like to be more of a long-term thinker, which has naturally been happening as I move through life.

Instead of planning life by the month or day, I’d like to have an idea of general milestones for the next year.

This includes business success, relationships, and health. More on that here:

#2: Go to the Gym.

I’ve wanted to do this for quite some time, but I haven’t due to the whole traveling thing; it’s much more expensive going to the gym when you have to constantly cancel memberships…

I have a current workout regiment which keeps me quite fit, but not optimal- I’m able to build a ton of strength, but my muscles don’t “pop out” like they would if I were lifting heavier weights.

This year I achieved my goal of running 5k in under 20 minutes, and also for the majority of the year did a push-up/sit-up routine. The results are showing for my abs, but not for my arms.

Like I said I’m building strength but not muscle size, and looking better is a huge motivator for me. So, I’d like to upgrade my workout routine into the gym instead of doing what I’m currently doing.

#3: Ergo Work Setup

My days of working at a cafe are coming to an end!

I was meditating a few days ago, and my shoulders, neck, and head asked me to start taking better care of them.

Back when I first started in business, I had a dope ergo setup that also included a standing desk. Since traveling, I’ve not been able to easily recreate this.

It’s not hard work; I just take some books, buy an external mouse + keyboard, and work at home instead of at the cafe.

Since experimenting with an ergo set up just for the past few days I’ve felt a TON better. It’s crazy how much more endurance I have, and now I realize that previous “work fatigue” I thought I had was actually me hunching over!

Also, I’d like to work more from home instead of a cafe, just so that I can handle business calls, etc. Working from cafes is really fun though, so I’ll still do that, just for less time.

#4: Long-Term Living Situation

I will be more thoroughly investigating a long-term visa for Bulgaria, as that is where I tend to feel happiest.

However, this last trip in Thailand was 11/10 amazing. So if I can’t get that visa, then I’ll do 50% time in Thailand, and 50% time in Bulgaria most likely.

No promises yet though- I’m doing a little bit more reflecting to confirm my long-term living situation.

I’d ideally like to live in a one city- any city (ALMOST)- but I’m not quite committed to any place yet. The only place I’d pull the trigger on is Bulgaria, which also happens to be the hardest place for me to get a long-term visa >_>

That being said, even 50% Bulgaria and 50% somewhere else is nice, because at least then it’s certain, and I can probably rent one place and have it work out financially.

Like I’ve written many times this year, the whole “digital nomad” thing is kind of wearing on me. I need a main base, and it’s kind of funny how easily I’ve gotten stuck in this way of life.

I wrote down for my goal list “less travel, more focus on long-term connections + dating, and more focus on my bases as well.”

I’m also feeling more capable of handling deeper, longer-term relationships…

#5: Embracing Reality

I’m looking to embrace reality more and more, and apply my decision-making skills to this year to live a much more fulfilling and relaxing life.

Some moments in the past week I’ve been thinking things “should be like this, or they are like that in another country, bla bla bla” but I’ve silenced that victim bullshit and embraced reality.

It’s a lot better when you do that.

Anyways, what’s up with you? What did you learn in 2019, and what do you plan to do in 2020?

Let me know!

Thanks – Michael

What Happened to DTU? (DRAFT)

What happened to Driving The Universe? This “blog,” which is hardly a blog anymore, started out with a lot of ambiguity.

One of my mentors a few years ago told me to collect 100 Emails and start writing newsletters, so I just did it.

Turns out I’m fairly alright at copywriting (in ads as well), so I kind of kept writing and inviting new friends to join the blog.

A lot of people would write back with their thoughts on my life experiences, and so it turned into a unique “idea exchange” of sorts- so it felt for me. I would then publish new ideas, etc.

That was in the beginning, but over the years I stopped caring to promote it. I stopped asking new friends for their Emails, and slowly I started removing links to join it.

The “blog” had changed as well, in a way it sort of turned into a public journal of my own, especially after breaking up with a girl I dated for almost a year and I spiraled into darkness.

To be honest, this “blog” ended up having no clear intent. I was just writing different thoughts and ideas, and mimicking what a mentor told me to do- but I had forgotten the purpose for collecting the Emails, which was eventually to promote something, or build an audience to promote things to down the line.

But I never did any of that…

One friend living in Bulgaria responded to a blog post I had written, and I was completely shocked- I had forgotten I posted a link to sign up to my blog on my Instagram, and I removed the link.

I’m not sure why this intuitive rapid de-promotion of my own content started, but I have in a way my ex-girlfriend to thank for that.

The “blog” fueled a lot of my own arrogance, and she rightfully called me out on it.

I was writing as if I was an expert on many different subjects, and while I may “know” a lot, I hadn’t experienced a lot. What I mean is that I hadn’t tested many of the ideas that I was writing about, so a lot of it turned into a ton of fluff.

It also turned into a public journal of sorts, like the type of stuff I was comfortable getting responses to. Sometimes I’d write a post, then just publish it private so no one saw it.

Over the years I realized that this blog had no clear intent. I received some feedback on that as well, which woke me up to the reality (thank you!!).

In short:

This blog was intended to be used to promote different business stuff, but it ended up turning into a complete mess, a kind of promotional journal, and ended up also kind of being a waste of my own time.

That’s not to say that it’s all bad- the “public journal” has helped a lot of people through my writing, the point that I’m trying to make here is there was never any intent.

I’m trying to live in 2020 with a lot more intent, and also be careful of my weaknesses.

While this blog had many positive aspects, it also highlighted many of my weaknesses, such as:

  • Derpiness / aimlessness (lack of intent)
  • Arrogance (assuming I knew more about reality than I did)
  • Victim mentality (writing endless stories about the break up, confusion, darkness, etc.)
  • Lack of my own self-assuredness in decision-making

This is why I’ve been writing less and less as the months go on. Or the posts have been shorter and lacking clarity. Or just straight-up promotion for new projects that I was working on, and half-assed promotion at that!

With experiencing “real” successes in all areas of life, I’ve felt less-inclined to work on this, however that’s not to say that I won’t reactivate this project with more intent in 2020.

I’m writing this for those of you that have been around since the beginning, and have been confused as to why my writing has been less & less.

It also will explain why I’ve deleted many posts + links, locked some posts, etc.- until I discover a new intent for this Email stuff, I won’t be promoting it, and as it stands Driving The Universe is basically a public journal more than anything else.

Also note: the thoughts on this section are a bit jumbled, there was quite a few different events that happened that changed the course of things.

Anyways [

What is Reality? Embrace it.

Earlier this year I watched an epic video by Ray Dalio, and it made me write something down that has been quite impactful since:

“What is Reality? Embrace it.”

In the morning & night I recite 3 things I feel grateful for, but then also read this.

Reality is yin & yang, truth is there’s a lot more you could be grateful for, and by reciting some gratitude stuff and affirmations you’d be a lot happier.

At the same time, reality faces us with some difficult situations sometimes.

A cause of a lot of your suffering is just from resisting the situation, instead of embracing it fully.

I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting recently, and MOST problems that I’ve had were never too complicated when I thought about it… And same for my problems moving forward.

The problem was that I was stuck in my head of how things “should be,” or I just didn’t accept the situation fully.

When you stop telling stories about everything that is happening in your life, you can actually find a solution rather easily.

Earlier this year, I was telling a victim story about how my travels went out of control, my visa for Bulgaria fucked up, and I broke up with my ex.

The thing was that to move forward I had to stop telling a story. I had to take off the victim hat, analyze the situation, and then start moving forward.

Eventually I embraced reality, woke up, and realized that I had wasted a couple months just being sad, and not really doing anything meaningful.

Note: alternatively we could say that those months of sadness were necessary to get over the heart-break, who knows.

Still, had I boiled things down into the simplest explanation, then I would’ve been able to take care of myself much better. Without embracing reality, you have no clarity, and with no clarity comes no good decision.

Some things that help you become clear are meditation, quitting social media, quitting video games, walking in nature, talking or writing about your problem, and exercise.

Now that I’ve started doing this, I’ve been writing a lot less on here because a lot more has been happening in my own life.

My next business steps are obvious, same for personal life, and even for travel or where to live.

Just try to boil everything down to a simple sentence, as hard as it may be. Then it becomes easier to ask others for advice, and you don’t get a huge variance in responses.

Back when I told stories, people would understand different parts of the story, and then give different parts of advice. It was highly varied and thus not actionable.

Now when I explain a simple sentence with a, “my current situation is this, but I would like this desired situation,” the answer(s) become rather obvious for others to provide me, or me to provide myself.

You can do this yourself as well. When you’ve got a problem, just start writing in your journal or reflecting until you can boil this down into a simple sentence.

Anyways, that’s all for now. Have a great day!


how to predict future

Hey, how would you like the ability to predict the future?

Or if not predict the future, then find great business ideas that become massively successful with little to no work required?

Or predict trends that are happening in your country?

I think I’ve found a way.

No, it won’t work for everything & anything. But this little observation of mine could be used greatly to your benefit to understand trends, things that will happen, and also steal great business ideas that will help you succeed massively.

Here’s how I discovered it:

I’m back in Phoenix now after over a day’s worth of travel from Thailand to America.

One thing that really bothers me about the USA is just how suburban it is.

Big houses are cool, but what’s cooler is not feeling lonely. Big houses & lawns means more size, and more size means longer commutes between any two places.

Explaining the American suburbs to my Asian & European friends is… Difficult to say the least.

In Sofia, Bulgaria the “suburbs” don’t exist from what I’ve experienced- at the very least not like they do in America.

Over in Bulgaria they have “villages,” or places out of “Sofia Center,” but it’s just not like American suburbs!

In the USA it’s normal to have to drive VERY long distances to go between places, and Phoenix is one of the most sprawled out cities there is.

This creates a HUGE problem- loneliness.

Besides loneliness, the whole “car thing” only works if you’ve got a great income. Without that (or family to support you), you’re pretty much trapped in your big home!

To make matters worse, unlike Europe & Asia, it is uncommon to have social places near your home in the suburbs.

You have to drive several kilometers (with no public transit either) to get to the nearest social places like restaurants, cafes, and malls.

This means that you either have to have a solid income to afford… Well, living in the USA.

There’s a lot of weird complications that come from the suburbs- for example, crime is easier to commit when everything is so sprawled out that it would be so difficult to catch you.

I couldn’t imagine robbing a bank in Sofia or Chiang Mai- it would just be so difficult to escape.

Here in America? No problem. A simple vehicle gives you dozens of exit points, and each exit point leads to a few more possible roads you could take (sidenote: that’s why gun culture is more popular too, police take significantly longer to arrive to your home).

The point is this: suburbs are a great idea that turned out oh-so-wrong, and actually make people lonely, depressed, and worst of all:

“Up and coming” people have it harder. It’s harder to escape poverty when you need a car to get to work, yet a reliable car costs $10,000.

My own online business isn’t super successful, hence part of the reason I prefer abroad over the USA- it’s just cheaper & easier to live!

Now, this isn’t a post about the American suburbs. I just had to paint a clear picture for all of those that have never experienced it.

This post is about how to predict the future, so where are we going with this?

This problem, while unique to America, is certainly not unique to the world.

Some countries in Europe experienced a similar phenomenon several decades ago, but they found a solution, and people also changed their values one at a time, affecting the whole nation slowly.

With so much space available, America was originally about expansion. In a way it still is.

People moved farther out from the cities, into new, cheaper land, and then commuted with their cars to get back downtown.

Other countries had this “suburbia” shit for a while, but they started to change.

People felt lonely. Commutes were boring. That beautiful big house became each person’s prison.

The financially struggling needed other ways to get on their feet… And the financially abundant realized that there’s more to life than your bank account.

What mattered most was community. Having connection.

Eventually these other countries adopted. Communal spaces were built with shared public areas, and population density increased as, even despite having extra space available to live in, people desired to live closer to all the action.

A little bit of research, and you’ll see that the same is happening in the United States.

People are finally waking up and realizing that they want to be closer, have more shared space, and shorter commutes! They want cheaper transportation, too.

This trend is not unique to the United States, as we are all human. While we each have a different “culture,” there is also a “human” element to who we are which is driving the world.

So now I’m gonna lay it on you, how to predict the future:

Look at the trends of other nations, and see which nations have not yet had these trends- it is highly like that these nations will experience said trends, which you can use to understand the world, or make smarter business/life choices.

This suburbia example aside, there are tons of other examples, such as taking a very popular food dishes from one nation to another, or implementing systems that another place has.

If you were interested in purchasing or building real estate in the USA, you could now understood that you shouldn’t buy far away from downtown “because that’s how it’s always been.”

Instead you’d be better off purchasing downtown because that’s where the trend is moving towards.

Another example would be the “digital marketing craze” which swept over North America.

This craze hasn’t hit Bulgaria entirely yet, with many establishments still being cash-dependent (they literally don’t accept credit cards in SO many places).

If you start working on your SEO now in Bulgaria, you’ll be riding a great wave of fortune in the coming years as that starts to pick up.

Of course this won’t work for everything, and some things are non-transferable. For example, culture-specific things (ie. a certain religion) will not transfer, but things that are economical, profitable, and human (ie. aversion to loneliness) will.

I’ve observed this happening all around the world!

In the USA earlier this year I noticed “LIME” scooters all over Phoenix. When I returned to Bulgaria later in the year, they were everywhere over Bulgaria despite them having not been there before I left!

Observing trends is really cool for business decisions, personal decisions, and even just for fun.

This is rather difficult to do sometimes though because it’s hard to know that which you do not know you do not know.

For example, you know that you don’t know how to speak Turkish. You know that you don’t know it.

But when you don’t know that you don’t know something, it’s super hard to discover it.

That’s why travel can be so exciting- there’s so much you didn’t even realize you had no awareness of until you went to said place.

Even without travel you can leverage this by observing media, listening to friends / what people talk about, etc. and when you hear something new research if it’s been implemented in any other cities or countries, as if it have, there’s a strong likelihood the same thing will happen in your place.

The whole “let’s go back downtown and fuck the suburbs” movement came decades before in other countries besides USA.

Now the USA is starting to go through this movement, and I’m especially aware of this having realized what has happened in other countries.

What will you use this for? Personal reasons? Business reasons?

Let me know if you have any thoughts hit “reply” and tell me!

In short, observe what works in another place, and if it does work then it’s likely it will work or spread to where you are!


Life, Gratitude, & Clarity

It hasn’t even been a week, but I’ve noticed massive changes in my brain & life since consciously reducing my “distraction addiction.”

Instead of watching endless YouTube videos, I watch none- maybe one, then done.

Instead of putting on my headphones, constantly listening to music or podcasts, I have embraced the awkward elevator talks and boredom.

When I decided for my brain that it could no longer get dopamine from those methods, it has begun auto-optimizing for my other areas of life.

The answers to questions such as, “where do I want to live, what do I want to do for work, what am I passionate about,” etc. keep getting answered. I just feel… clear.

Every morning I used to go down a rabbit hole of bullshit on my phone, wasting several hours.

Now I get up and workout in the morning instead of the evening, and that “morning workout high” is carrying me through the day (this is likely a huge cause of the many benefits I’m experiencing too, re-adjusting my workout schedule).

The coolest benefit is feeling re-inspired to do business & work again.

I bought this expensive business course that is one of the best. When I first went through it, I went through the areas I felt most excited by, not in any order (despite the creator telling you that you MUST go through everything in order for it to make sense).

I went to wek 5’s content, then week 4, then 3, then 2, and then finally 1- but I rushed through week 1, thinking arrogantly that I didn’t need it.

Guess what? I got my ass kicked!

When I was in Bulgaria earlier this year I hustled my face off for a month straight, denying my mental health, social life, and dating life. And I walked away with nothing to show.

How is it that I could experience success sometimes with minimal work (10 hours per week) but then other times when I was pulling in a 10 hour day I had nothing to show for it?

It’s because I didn’t do the boring foundational work that’s necessary in business.

It goes back to “Distraction Addiction.” My brain was so used to constantly being stimulated by bullshit that it couldn’t bare to handle the boring, lame work of business that legitimately creates success.

I had to get knocked down a few times to return to a humble state, realizing just how little I know.

In short, my problem was I was selling things the market didn’t truly need. Yet I was spinning my wheels as if I need better ads, better Emails, better this and better that.

Nope, the fancy marketing tactics don’t work if the market doesn’t want the product.

With my brain fixing itself, I find myself capable of sitting through a boring 1 hour lecture about how to conduct market research. It actually is becoming interesting, perhaps also because I have tried the “succeed fast” way, so now I am humbled to do the real work required to succeed.

Since cutting out my distraction addiction, I’ve picked up a few healthy habits. Here are some of them:

  • Reflection- my brain is naturally reflecting on life, problems, pains, and joys. I am realizing that I don’t need to Google for advice, ask a million people, etc. I can just reflect on my pain and find a solution (that’s not to say it’ll always be that way, but for now it is).
  • Clear thought– my brain is thinking clearer. I can think about complex things and stay focused on a topic for longer
  • Affirmations- I’ve picked up affirmations again
  • Morning Workouts– they suck and are definitely easier in the evening after you’ve loosened up but it’s a great way to wake up and feel awesome
  • Self-Control– in general I feel I have a lot more self-control.
  • Social Acuity– I’m already pretty good at this but it’s getting better. I can handle the discomfort of new social interactions easier
  • Introversion- strangely I’m feeling more like an introvert and capable of being one since this. I don’t need people/girls to stimulate me.

These are no doubt just the surface-level benefits, and more are to come.

Another huge one is that my perception of time is changing. I used to feel like days went by so fast and there was “no time,” but now I feel like there is A TON of time.

For example, a few days ago I went on a date with a girl and we had “only 3 hours” together. But it felt like a long 3 hours (and it was a great date FYI).

I just feel more productive in general, perhaps because you can easily blow away 3 hours on social media/videos just like that, whereas 3 hours spent in the “real world” go by pretty slowly.


My memories feel clearer, too. Suddenly I am able to remember yesterday, the day before, the day before that day, etc. much easier.

With my brain not being constantly stimulated, it’s like it’s naturally sorting out everything in my life. I know I keep writing this and it might sound strange, but you should really give it a try.

I don’t feel like I’m in conscious control of my brain, and that’s OK & GOOD. It’s just a machine processing my life, I’m letting go, not stimulating it with bullshit, and because I’m doing both of those things it’s naturally doing its thing.

I am having moments of immense gratitude + love. Perhaps it’s because I’m 100% here to “experience the moment.”

A few days ago I drove up to the mountain just to enjoy the view, alone. My phone was off the entire way, and I hadn’t been stimulating before.

I felt like crying from joy at the wonderful view. It was magical. I thought to myself, “this is the purpose of life, to experience, to explore, to live in each moment as it is.”

Why hadn’t I felt that way before? Because before I was trying to SNATCH PHOTOS OF EVERY SINGLE FUCKING VIEW & ANGLE.

Isn’t that what we are all doing? We go to some temples or mountains or cool shit and PHOTO PHOTO PHOTO then leave!

Without the excess stimulation, the constant “BOOM BOOM BOOM” of social media bullshit or music or notifications or WHATEVER, I am in the NOW, and in being there feel immensely grateful to experience this life.

I am becoming more aware of… Everything. I’m driving the same roads I do every day, but this time I see new cafes, new restaurants, new secret alleys to explore…

I am remembering my past clearer. Where I came from. Who I am now. Who I am becoming.

I feel immensely grateful for all of the friends I’ve made & the experiences I’ve had all around the world.

Why had I forgotten just how amazing life is? The constant noise from the phone alone caused me to forget, caught up in all the distractions of the little roller coasters.

Yesterday evening I briefly saw a few pics on my IG feed as I was responding to some messages- I saw every smile fake, everything bullshit.

I’m not saying it’s all bad. It definitely has its utilities. But c’mon, I know some of y’all aren’t smiling like you do on your IG feed.

We are masters of the internet world, yet incapable of connecting in person.

I think that disconnecting from my phone is attracting people to me as well. Yesterday after my workout in the park, instead of leaving my headphones on or derping on the phone, I decided to walk around in reality, and smile at people.

A girl said “hello” to me, and we started chatting. I met her friend, and the three of us started walking together around the park.

We spontaneously decided to drive to a temple together, then go to a cafe after. I met more friends of their friends at the cafe.

Also at the temple I made another acquaintance. Because I wasn’t peering through the world via my phone, I made eye contact with someone and we started talking. We exchanged contacts and will get lunch sometime.

The simple decision to exist in reality is connecting me with several other humans, it’s crazy.

Yesterday I met at least 6 new people all because I decided not to peer into my phone. Instead, I woke up to reality, and peered into the eyes of others.

It wasn’t even me that said hello. I did nothing. I just looked and smiled and people came to me.

Yesterday was supposed to be a routine day, but ended up being an exciting adventure of making new friends, exploring temples, and enjoying laughs.

How many opportunities are you missing because you look into your phone instead of the eyes of other humans?

I’m noticing my decision affecting others as well. I mentioned a girl that was so addicted to her phone she couldn’t hardly communicate with me on our first date in my last post.

When she told me when she was free, I asked if she’d be going out with me, or her phone. I put my ultimatum down and she put her phone down, and she went from a “boring phone girl” to a sweet, cute girl I enjoyed being with because I would not accept her phone addiction.


Ray Dalio created an epic 30 minute YouTube channel called “Principles for Success” (click the link to view).

My biggest take-away from it, and partly what inspired my anti-distraction-addiction goal now, is his emphasis on reflection in the process of success.

Being clear-minded and free of distractions, I feel my brain processing events, feelings, and thoughts naturally.

The boring 3 minutes I spent waiting for the elevator in my apartment building are no longer stimulated by roaring music + IG notifications. Without that stimulation my brain can, without conscious effort from me, process it.

That right there is why I write so passionately about this! I feel human again! And I am amazed at the fact that I have to try SO LITTLE to become clear about my thoughts & feelings.

There’s very little required of you, too. Just turn your phone off for a day and watch what happens.

Anyways, back to Ray Dalio: I realized that I was charging through life without reflection. I repeated over the past couple years many of my mistakes, and I also lost perspective.

I stopped feeling inspired & grateful to live my life because on IG I constantly saw hot girls + smiles + ultra-fit guys “better than me” (but not actually), and my brain couldn’t think clearly with background music roaring all the time via my headphones.

Now that I’ve given myself boredom time just to reflect, I’m becoming clearer and clearer day by day on my financial goals, travel goals, etc.

And like I keep writing over and over, it requires no conscious effort on my part.

Whereas before I was constantly trying to figure things out, now they are figuring themselves out because my subconscious mind is free to wander!

In Bulgaria earlier this year I remember talking with a friend so anxiously, trying to figure out “where should I live?”

Should it be in America? Bulgaria? Asia? Oh gosh, the anxiety, the complexity!

Now I’m chilled out, I know what I want & need, I don’t need any feedback. I’m not 100% certain yet, but I know the steps I need to take to become certain.

When you wake up to reality, you figure out how you want to live- really.

There have been some uncomfortable emotions. I have some writing this, now. A little emotional pain that I’ll have to go into.

That’s why distracting is so much easier. I could forget these emotions for a minute by opening YouTube. I’m not gonna lie, I have that impulse slightly.

But I choose not to. No more. STOP!

The discomfort needs to be embraced. Life feels long now. One day is… A REALLY long time.

Instead of the days flying by, I’m going “holy shit man 16 waking hours how am I gonna spend all this time???”

I’ll keep you all updated, but I highly encourage you to join me. Turn off your phone. Disable notifications. Be clear. No more music. No more TV, movies, videos, anything. Stare at the wall and discover your true life.