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Conquering Inner Demons

Since April, it’s been my commitment to finally start financially growing in the way I’ve always wanted to. After creating my website, it came time to put my hands in the mud: sales.

First I made the mistake of launching Facebook Ads pre-maturely. In the moment it didn’t seem like quite a mistake, but now I have learned a lot more and decided to first increase my revenue and then experiment with ads when I have a larger budget.

In the past 2 weeks I’ve been highly committed to experimenting and learning sales. It’s been an emotional rollercoaster.

Conquering Inner Demons: It’s So Easy, In Mind

In theory, the prospect of anything is incredibly easy.

If you want to get several girls, all you have to do is buy a training program and then hit the clubs and talk to all kinds of girls. Within a year you’ll be an expert.

If you want to grow a business, you buy a training program and hustle hard. You just have to evaluate what’s most important (sales + closing deals) and then do that.

Yet that’s not what happens.

As humans we can so easily make two mistakes:

The first is over-analyzing, over-planning, yet never taking action. This is me- I have known so much for so long yet not applied it.

The problem with this one is you’re a “talker” but not a “walker.” People validate you because you sound intelligent, when in fact you are not applying what you’re talking about.

I’m purposefully writing way less on the blog for this reason, and from now on only writing about things I’ve already done rather than the theory of the future.

The second is indiscriminate action. I’ve also dipped into this, though my problem lies more in the first.

These are the people that blindly shout you need to work 90 hour work weeks. Yet they don’t make any progress. They rush to take action, yet without planning or any degree of reflection.

Alas, it is not yin or yang which we need yet both to create the whole. Success in any field is a combination of planning & thinking while also taking massive action. One without the other leads to mediocre results.

Conquering Inner Demons: Getting Assistance

One of my own problems has been being too stubborn combined with being too disorganized.

Getting organized has happened naturally as I’ve taken more action. It’s especially happening as I start to schedule sales calls and practice sales calls with other sales newbies.

Admitting that I needed help was difficult. I ended up purchasing the “Consulting Accelerator” program for $1,500 (my referral link gives you $500 off the $2k price if you’re curious) because it is the most comprehensive course on creating a consulting business.

It’s the best purchase I’ve ever made. I’ve also purchased coaching calls with others, some as high as $250 for just 45 minutes with an expert. That too was a good investment.

I’ve written previously about the “map of consciousness,” in which a “calibration” above 200 is productive and healthy and anything below 200 unproductive and not healthy.

Well I can see now that I’ve calibrated so close to 200 in terms of wealth creation- I’ve calibrated at the level of “pride.”

At pride you are taking action (sometimes), but more concerned with your appearance or image.

A prideful person also is insistent that they could “achieve it all on their own” and so they do not get help from courses or others, even when the time saved is so significant.

You see this pride rampant among the internet because the majority of the population on Earth calibrates below 200. According to the book Power vs. Force & Levels of Energy, the global average has only exceeded 200 and for long before that we calibrated right below the level of 200.

Everyone is so insistent that you can “find everything for free online,” yet they fail to realize in doing so you will lose countless hours and also get confused by free advice which is not useful.

Anyone can write a blog. It only costs me about $60 or $80 per year or something like that for each one of my websites. That’s not even the cheapest hosting either!

By going through the consulting program, I’ve been able to learn exceptionally valuable lessons and face my inner flaws.

It was not pleasant. I had to face the fury, and I still am.

Conquering Inner Demons: Facing the Fury

Recently I messaged a friend who had become quite successful in business, and recently became quite successful with the ladies as well.

Initially I had been more successful in business than he- but he soon overtook me as I regressed from courage (taking action) to pride.

What I told him was something like this:

“I realize now why I always delayed taking action. By taking action, I’m confronting all of my inner securities and even the positive beliefs I’ve had about myself that I’m smart. I feel rather stupid because I realize now ther’s so little I know, so many mistakes I’ve made, and so much to learn.”

Sometime in April, when I resolved to actually become great, I began to have some negative thoughts start popping in my head telling me that I was “stupid.”

Sometimes I’d fight it with thoughts like “I’m smart,” but that didn’t make me feel too good either.

I realized recently that thoughts like “I’m smart” did not feel so good because they came from a place of pride. What does it matter if you’re smart or not? It doesn’t matter, all that matters is the results and happiness.

I had some beginner’s luck in business, but I failed to be persistent in my action until recently.

This beginner’s luck left me with a bit of pride and self-belief that I was greater and more intelligent than I actually was.

No, I was wrong. I am far from great. Far from skilled. There is much to learn, in all aspects of online business.

Sometimes when I take action and I’m building a sales list to contact, I start to get negative thoughts and my brain gets cloudy. But I push on.

I remind myself that it doesn’t matter how smart I am, for it is an iterative process. For example, my second version of the sales outreach script was a disaster. My 5th iteration or V5 is what has performed best. V6 has been mediocre.

The problem with thinking that you’re smart is that you expect great results instantly or soon.

That’s not how life works. You must take action, measure the results, and then form a new hypothesis and take action again. This iterative process is what gets you success in all areas of life, whether it be fitness, business, or dating.

For example, one non-business epiphany I had recently was that getting a woman’s Instagram was reducing my “approach to conversation ratio.” This ratio is how many women go from approach to text conversation.

The problem with getting a girl’s Instagram is that if she has already a fair number of followers then my follow will not trigger a proper notification on her end, and my message to her will get trapped in the “message requests” folder.

I hardly have any followers yet I am constantly spammed with porno bullshit.

Does this mean that I’m “bad with the girls?” No, it just means that the previous method of acquiring a girl’s contact information was ineffective. It’s likely that some of the girls I talked to are confused why they “never got my message” because they mass delete all messages that go to spam!

The school system is a huge detriment to this as well no matter if you were considered “smart” or “stupid.”

Some believe they are not smart, yet they just had crap teachers and a broken system- they could be in fact so intelligent.

On the other end of the spectrum you could believe you’re smart and win in that system, but then feel afraid to take action (me) because when things “don’t work” the first time you feel insecure about your intelligence.

I’ve sent 690 Emails but only had 2 sales calls (with 1-2 more in the pipeline). That’s a shit ton of work. That’s a threat to my perceived identity of being “smart” or a “good communicator.”

However one iteration (V5) of the 690 Emails (128 Emails of the 690) performed particularly well. By doubling down on V5, which is where one of the sales calls were acquired and another 1-2 are in the pipeline, it’s easily possible that these numbers will be better.

Be… Without Form Like Water

If anything this growth experience has taught me that I have to let go of my identity and become like water. Having an ego is of no benefit, whether you have positive thoughts or negative thoughts. Both inhibit you when it comes time to hit a new goal.

Some days are a struggle, but I push on because I know that I must go on in order to succeed.

It’s only a matter of time until I crack the sales code, and at this point there is no limit to my success.

In the meantime, it’s more of an internal battle than anything. The consulting course gives you an easy framework to follow to get results.

It teaches you a scientific, iterative process that allows you to refine your sales processes & offer so that you and your clients get the best results.

The thing is, you can’t get attached to any identity or emotions because it’s almost a guarantee that V1 will not be effective.

Iteration is the key word here- you must always test new things and keep what works while discarding the rest!

Regulate Yourself With Data

Sam Ovens, founder of the course, reminds you to “regulate yourself with data, not emotion.”

There are several times in the past 2 weeks where I’ve felt down because I’ve opened my laptop to receive no responses after grinding on writing cold Emails.

But I had to remind myself: that’s just V1. Or that’s just V2. It’s an iterative process and you have to test a ton of things to get it right.

The great flaw with school is that you get a one-time grade that defines you. That makes no fucking sense and has no basis in the reality of life & business.

In real life, if you do not succeed the first time you are allowed to reiterate and improve over and over until you get results.

The fucking school & University system is a mess. If I send a cold Email that gets no response, that does not define me forever. I am allowed to resend another Email to a new person or hell even the same person!

What we perceive as our identity is just a temporary snapshot of where we are at in a particular moment. It’s always changing.

Conquer Your Demons

I’m sharing with you today so that you can remember to conquer your own demons and face them!

With whatever goal(s) you have in life, you can achieve them, but you probably won’t succeed on the first attempt. That’s because life is a scientific, iterative process in which you most constantly retake the test over and over until you pass.

Unfortunately modern schooling makes us think that one grade defines us forever. No, you’re allowed to try over and over until you succeed!

Even more unfortunate is that you may have an identity. Whether you think you’re smart or not, this identity will likely hold you back. You have to relinquish this identity such so that the demons have nothing to attack.

How can the demons attack if I am neither smart nor stupid? They have no beliefs to punch, and I can just focus instead on reiterating what needs to be done until I achieve the desired goals.

Be like water, and lose resistance to your goals. Plan & take massive action for maximum effect. Reiterate over an over until you get it right. Done.


Slowing Down and Organizing to Go Farther

Do you have deadlines to make? Goals to accomplish? Are you running out of time?

We often find ourselves as humans trapped in the midst of chaos between past and future.

Equally as often we realize not that our chains were shackled by ourselves, but instead point fingers to the excuses that are as abundant as the wealth we would like to create.

Life is not a sprint. This we know intuitively. Yet still heart attack is how many will end their lives- the question being, is the heart naturally so fallible, or is it that we are pushing our hearts too hard for too long?

Covering the beauty of each moment is a layer of stress and importance. We must “do this now,” yet fail to realize that the very thing which we wish to do can only be accomplished in the future. What happened to now?

This undercurrent of anxiety is pervasive in almost all cultures that I have observed around the world. The wars of the 1900’s are over, yet our hearts carry the stress of the past and the fears of the future.

Perhaps in a fleeting moment it feels as if this sense of fear is accomplishing something.

In 2018, I boasted once of finally achieving the “4 hour work week.” But each hour was filled with an intense, manic stress- I had to strain to focus. Had I relaxed my pace, the 8 hour work week would’ve been significantly more fulfilling than the 4 hour work week. Also, I could only achieve it for one week at a time.

Anyways, it left me feeling not well. There was more I knew I could do- achieving such a feat did not feel good, and so I read obsessively book after book trying to fill the hole in my life. Not even love could fill me back up.

What I failed to realize was the lack of sustainability in my habits and life patterns during this time.

When I worked, it was like a manic sprint to get to the end. It was all about trying to get it done as soon as possible.

An hour of work for me likely equated to multiple hours of work from others. Sometimes that is still so because I force myself to focus so intently.

On one end of the pendulum, you have those that brag about their 80 hour work weeks yet they fail to be productive in any. On the other you have those who sell themselves short and sprint as fast as possible during each minute they must work.

What does this accomplish, for both sides to rush obsessively to the same end? The heart, not in it for either method of life, puts out eventually.

Heart disease is the leading source of death yet perhaps we’re killing ourselves before we ever died. If the heart isn’t in it, it’s only a matter of time until reality catches up with how the heart feels.

The great lesson I’ve learned recently is to stimulate less, rush less, do less, all at the same time going farther.

Instead of anxiously rushing through each hour, enjoy each second of it, focusing on the breath and enjoying the moment. Take breaks to appreciate the flowers, the people, the sun.

In the end life is a marathon. Anyone who is coughing by the first mile of a marathon is certain to not complete the marathon, but those who run the first mile with relaxed attention are certain to complete the marathon.


In the past I worked like a maniac. It wasn’t the elusive “flow state” or “deep work” that is talked about today, but instead a state of anxiety-induced energy… An obsession to finish and get to the end now.

I would take a look at what must get done, and then proceed to rush through it as fast as possible. Sometimes my work suffered, though sometimes I produced quality work- it just wasn’t that fulfilling.

After a few hours I could accomplish more than what most people could accomplish in an entire day. But I would be wiped out.

It would then be hard to clean, make plans, feel inspired, or do anything. The sense of anxiety would pervert all areas of my life. I had to get laid “now.” I had to run faster “now.”

Many of us forget that the sprinting method was only to be available on unpopular occasions, such as when a lion was about to eat us, or when a deadline needed to be met.

Like the gluttonous creatures we are, we abused this ability and made it the norm. For many, gluttony is the most popular deadliest sin of today’s time.

I believed that because I was not fat I was not gluttonous, but oh I was so wrong.

I indulged too much in travels that burnt me out, worked anxiously until burnout, and over-stimulated my brain with social media and even self-help garbage.

Entering Slow Motion

It’s a tough lesson to learn, but one day it clicked. Sometimes the anxious energy sneaks up on me, I must be aware to relinquish it before it takes hold of me like a ship in stormy waters.

Instead of rushing so quickly to get my work done, I try to make a point of walking slowly. Of appreciating the moment.

Today I enjoyed a coffee, and tried to drink it slower, appreciating the wonderful taste it had.

There were flowers on the road, a mountain view at the end of the road, and new bookstores opening up. My Bulgarian is so good, yet I pretended to understand and looked at the books.

The flowers were captivating and appreciating their beauty brought with it a sense of calm and peace that people spend their whole life looking for.

In every purchase, every mission, every minute I was searching so hard for this sense of fulfillment. I walked so fast down the street to each next destination looking for peace, yet there were flowers lining the streets ready and willing to share with me the beauty they had to share all along!

It’s no wonder we’re killing our planet- we have eyes yet are blind to what our Earth is excitedly trying to share with us.

If the flowers could speak, they would cry- “why don’t you appreciate me?” They spent their whole lives growing into wonderful specimens just for us to rush right past them anxiously searching for the very gift they offer to us.

When you take that minute- just one minute- to appreciate their beauty, you do indeed lose a minute, but you gain the energy to work for a whole extra hour!

If you work slower, appreciating each moment of your work, you gain the ability to become fulfilled from it, work longer, and in the end go farther.

It is truly like the sport of running. If you sprint 400 meters as fast as you can, you are certain to collapse and be unable to run the rest of the mile. But if you jog calmly the first 400 meters and the other 3 laps, then you are certain to complete the mile with ease.

Connecting With Self

How many people do you see in the metro or on the streets walking calmly, with no stimulation?

No, we are already cyborgs. We had it wrong: we don’t own our phones, they own us.

It is they who choose whether we shall watch YouTube, become angry on Reddit, see photos on Instagram, or listen to music.

It took me so long to realize that this is not alone time. It is not time with others and it is not time alone- you are becoming the music, becoming the photo, or becoming the Reddit.

In each becoming, you are not with yourself. You do not feel your emotions or hear your thoughts. They become numbed out.

Today I started by playing some music on my headphones, but then observing how it disconnected me from myself, I chose to turn the music off.

The constant stimulation gets to be too much at times. It’s never enough!

When I decided to go inward, to my own emotions & thoughts, I felt calmer and better than before. It turns out that my joy was really found from within, and not from addiction called “phone.”

In going inward, I also went outward. The birds sang to me, the sun shone on just me, and the mountain offered its grounding presence to me.

The subtle things became the big things. What I was once blind to, I became one with.

I’m starting to see that many of life’s problems are not really problems. They all share the root cause of a lack of self-connection.

You don’t need advice from YouTubers or Reddit. You just need to disconnect from that, reconnect with yourself, and then those thoughts and feelings with naturally sort themselves out.

Organization & Preparation

With the anxious rush that is so prevalent today we often find ourselves lacking in organization and preparation. Alternatively the pendulum swings to the other side, and we do nothing but organize and prepare- but fail to act.

In my past I’ve either talked so much yet acted to little, or acted too fast and suddenly without care.

A fine balance of yin & yang is required to go far, or to go anywhere. To do so requires you to slow down and not get jammed on one side of the equation.

Every night it is wise to prepare for the day that is to become. This anxious energy assumes that future and past are here now, but truly relaxing in the now means that you acknowledge the future is not here- but instead you can prepare for it, and when it comes, act in the new now.

Going Farther

Through slowing down, organizing, and acting slowly yet certainly, the possibility to go very far becomes a reality.

Achieving goals is no longer difficult because a little progress is made each day. Alternatively, a lot of progress is made each day- but it is no longer through an anxious, obsessive energy!

I observe in myself so often that I will burnout by rushing things so fast. I’ll try to work too hard and fast. The wiser thing is to slow down and focus on the marathon so I can actually complete the marathon.

Smell the roses, appreciate the beauty of each flower. They are asking for it. You are asking for it, but you can’t even hear it amidst all the noise!

Let go of constant stimulation. Reconnect. Love everyone, and yourself. Relax. You need not arrive NOW, for it is each step that matters anyways.



Energetic Spirals & the Wave of Fortune

Have you ever had a day, week, or month where literally everything seemed to be going just perfectly?

First you close some extra business deals, then you get a girlfriend/boyfriend, then you get a free dinner for no reason…

Such occurrences can be observed on the micro level (minutes or hours) or on the macro (months). It can also be observed for little things such as getting a free coffee, or big things such as job promotions and dating.

Furthermore these occurrences are both positive or negative.

I was blessed to have been exposed to energetic-related books at a younger age and study this, and now I’ve been able to observe it in my own life and others.

It’s really freaky how it truly is a law of the Universe that things form energetic spirals.

Let me start by giving some examples of energetic spirals from my own life. You will soon be able to see the spirals in your own life.

Case Study 1: “Law of Explosions”

Something I may have written about a couple years ago is something I called “The Law of Explosions.” I can’t remember whether this was published, but I definitely observed this Law in Montreal.

Basically what I had noticed in my life up to that point was that I often saw that I’d have no results in a particular area of life, but then suddenly it would feel that overnight I would have all of the results in the world.

I first observed this in business. I would have no clients, and then suddenly I’d have more clients and work than I knew what to do with.

The time it took to close my first deal was quite some time, but the time it took to close my second, third, and fourth was significantly less.

When I went to Montreal and later Bulgaria I observed this “Law of Explosions” in my social and dating life as well.

First I’d have no friends and be completely new to the city. I’d put in a ton of effort into meeting a lot of people. I would not be invited to things.

Then seemingly one day I’d wake up and I’d feel like a mini celebrity. I’d be getting recognized on the streets, have more social invitations than I could imagine, and feel great socially.

In dating this effect is particularly pronounced. One day you have no girls, next thing you know you have more girls than you know what to do with!

In fact I even wrote a long post about this, but I haven’t published it yet because it might sound a bit too egoic and goes into some other interesting stuff such as NoFAP…

The short version is that I observed dating followed the same pattern in every single city:

First you have no partners. You have no dates. You have to put in a ton of effort, and nothing really comes of it. The first few dates in a new city almost always suck.

Then you meet someone with whom you connect a bit more deeper with. That’s great, and most people stop there. If you keep going you’ll meet exponentially more people that you connect with, and have more dating partners than you can possibly imagine.

What was this “Law of Explosions?” Why was it that everything seemed to explode out of nowhere whether financially, socially, or in dating?

I was onto something with the “Law of Explosions,” but it would take another year until I actually discovered what it was.

Case Study 2: The Breakdown of Everything

In Mid-2018 when I had to leave Bulgaria for visa reasons, I entered more of a victim, docile state and stopped participating with so much effort in life.

Not just one area of my life suffered- everything seemed to suffer.

First my finances started sucking. I had to work really hard to try to find another client. I was unprepared for Cyprus, and especially the cost difference compared to Bulgaria.

Suddenly my relationship began to fall apart as we fought more and more, and me and my ex could not handle the distance. Boundaries were crossed.

I was alone, I felt alone, and I didn’t ask for help when I needed it. Instead of taking massive action, I rode this energetic downward spiral until the end of 2018.

At the end of 2018 everything had seemingly fallen apart for me. The relationship which was previously so magical was dead and left me shattered, my finances were less than ideal as I would have massive taxes to make up on, and I felt more lost than ever.

Everything is Connected – Quantum Entanglement

During each energetic spiral the strange truth that everything is connected in life became quite apparent.

There was no such thing as finances falling apart while relationships were maintained, and vice versa. While some areas of life received a greater impact (ie. total relationship destruction), other areas subsequently suffered in the meantime as well.

It’s very rare that I’ve observed one area of my life going amazing while everything else sucks.

I’m sure that it’s possible with others, however I haven’t really observed that. In general what I observe in people is that a couple areas of their life are going great, and other areas are going well.

It’s less common to see someone that has one area which is doing absolutely amazing and others which are doing completely awful, but it is possible.

What is Happening Here?

This effect can be coined “Energetic Spirals,” and when things are going well the “Wave of Fortune.” You can read more about it in “Reality Transurfing Steps I-V.”

When something goes well and you feel great, you attract more great things into your life which creates a self-fulfilling prophecy so things continue to go well.

The same can be true for when things go bad, if you let it be so. Something goes wrong, you get upset, and then things continue to go wrong.

For example, I recently returned to Bulgaria from Thailand and everything seemed to go wrong.

I got sick. I couldn’t eat. I was heartbroken again for a week. My laptop also decided to fail me, so I had to purchase a new one. The culture shock was more than I could’ve imagined. My muscles had become tight.

You have to be careful about energetic spirals because they are sneaky, both in the positive and the negative. Most people are completely unaware of them and unfortunately ride negative spirals downward.

Energetic Spirals, Decoded

Why this happens I can’t even be 100% for sure.

On the logical level when something good happens your brain’s focusing system begins to focus on more good, which makes you positive. When you’re positive other people receive good feelings which makes them more likely to serve you and continue to give you good things.

Imagine if someone just started screaming at you at work today for no reason. You probably won’t respond positively.

What’s probably happening there is the angry person had something bad happen to them, and so they’re in an angry mood. Because they’re angry they begin to attract more angry events onto themselves.

I think that many people get trapped in these energetic spirals without even realizing it.

People say “The world is an angry, mean place,” and then they go about life treating everyone like shit, and then their reality gets confirmed because no one likes being around that person!

I believe that there’s also an energetic component, in that certain events are literally attracted to you when you are sustaining certain vibes for extended periods of time.

Riding the Wave of Fortune

The great news with this is that when things are going well, it’s easy to ride the wave of fortune and continue to attract greatness into your life.

All you have to do is to continue to mentally replay the great events that have happened recently, and actively express gratitude to others, yourself, and to the Universe/God/whatever.

The gratitude brings you closer to the good things which happened, and mentally replaying it helps you feel better and believe more in the goodness of the world.

Now you can ride the waves of fortunes!

Avoiding Pitfalls

The hard part is not falling for traps when something doesn’t go perfectly as planned. When things go wrong, it’s important to maintain a clear vision, and keep your brain positive otherwise you can activate a downward spiral.

That doesn’t mean you should deny your negative emotions. Cry & release if you feel sad. If you’re angry go for an intense workout, or channel it into a creative pursuit.

The important thing here is to not channel your negative energy into yourself or into others. It’s okay to ask for help, but don’t channel anger into random people or those around you, for example.

It’s also critical to avoid a “victim mindset.” It’s all too easy to fall trap into thinking that you’re a victim and the world is against you.

I’ve observed this within myself to be even more subtle. In my case my ego will maintain a facade of control & responsibility, but it’ll replay a mental story in my mind of how everything fell apart.

The mental story will be about how things were great, and then things fell apart. The mental story will repeat itself over and over.

The key thing in the story is that it is unconscious and happening suddenly in my mind. Things are happening “to me” and not “for me or with me or because of me.”

When this happens you have to consciously take control of the story and say, “Yes, this happened, but now THIS is going to happen.” Then you have to take massive action into making that thing happen.

Basketball Study

There was a study done in which professional and non-professionals had to shoot basketballs into a hoop.

First they did so in silence, and this served as collecting a benchmark for this person’s skill. For example, they may have scored 5/10 baskets, 6/10, etc.

Then the group of people were split into two groups. One group would have a crow that boo’d them and told them they sucked as they shot the basket. The other group would have a cheering, great crowd.

As expected the people with the cheering crowd did a bit better always. This is why it’s important to have people that support you and love you for who you are.

The other group of people had a crowd which actively put them down during the basketball shot.

A strange thing happened: some people become worse, whereas others did not get worse at all!

What the researchers uncovered was that some people were affected more by the negative crowd than others. Those that allowed the crowd to control their emotions performed worse.

On the other hand, those who were professional and were used to adversity were able to channel the negativity into an energy which worked for them, or drown it out entirely with focus.

In the same way this is how we overcome downward spirals- we acknowledge that the negative energy exists, but we don’t let it drag us down.

Sadness, anger, rage, hatred, lethargy, and all the negative emotions sometimes come about.

The important thing is to consciously acknowledge it, then focus on your objective anyways. If you feed into it then you will activate a downward spiral.

When you feel a good emotion you are allowed to indulge in it, not so much so that your happiness turns into pride, but indulging in such a way where that you are actively expressing your gratitude for this thing happening. This attracts more goodness, helps you perform better, and thus the wave of fortune gets activated.

Leverage in Life

To really understand energetic spirals you must observe them in your own life and others.

When things have gone wrong in the past, see if it let to things going more wrong as you indulge in the negative emotions and let it drag you down.

When things have gone well, try to reflect and recall if any other things went especially well in the hours, days, and weeks following the good event.

The first step to leveraging energetic spirals in life is to observe them. Once you can observe them and confirm their reality, then you are ready to leverage them.

When you can properly leverage energetic spirals by releasing negative energy and embracing positive energy, you can grow at an exponentially faster rate.

Decoding Energetic Spirals in Social Life

As an example, here’s a decoded energetic spiral in social life.

First I would have nothing in a new city. I’d have to put in a lot of energy in order to meet new people. The results would be little.

Over time though an exponential upward curve would begin to take place. On week 1 I’d have 1 friend, on week 2 I’d have 3, on week 3 I’d have 8, on week 4 I’d have 25, so on and so forth.

As you can see in that made-up example the increase every week was not linear. I did not gain a single friend every single week. Often what happens is I’d go from one friend to exploding over the course of a month.

Of course in this particular example you are limited to what you can socially handle, so eventually the exponential curve evens out once I hit my max.

The reason this happens is because when you don’t have social abundance it’s very hard to get more social abundance. It’s easier to get what you already have.

As soon as you make one friend, you can go to a party with that friend and meet all of their friends. Once you’ve met all of their friends, one of their friends will have several more friends to introduce you to.

The hardest part is finding that one friend to take you to a social event. Once you have that, everything “explodes” via the “Law of Explosions.”

Rich Get Richer…

If you look up the wealth map of various individuals, you’ll see that their wealth often follows a similar pattern. It explodes exponentially over time, and this is due to the Wave of Fortune that they have learned to ride!

Leveraging Spirals & Waves of Fortune

I have previously described how to leverage spirals & waves of fortune.

In short you must not get attached to negative events and never develop a victim mindset.

When things go well be grateful and replay those positive events over and over in your mind.

Take massive action towards creating a positive future (but do it in the now) and you’ll be more likely to activate a wave of fortune.

Once you activate a wave of fortune, keep putting in massive action and don’t become complacent.

What often happens in companies and governments (and even relationships) is that a lot of effort is made, but then when things are good the company/government stops trying and loses their grounding. They then crash and lose the wave of fortune.

As long as you stay committed to putting in the effort, your results in whichever area of your life will grow exponentially.

You will create more wealth, develop greater & higher-quality social circles, get a great dating life, and more.

The key is finding & riding the wave of fortune…

Surf on,


Escaping from Darkness Within

“All is mind. Mind is all…. The Universe is Mental, held in the Mind of THE ALL.”

-The Kybalion

This Ancient Hermetic principle that “all is Mental” is irrefutable in both Science & Philosophy- it doesn’t matter which side you take.

Should you take the philosophical or spiritual side, you’ll believe in the spiritual nature of our existence and that we have came from elsewhere.

If you prefer the more scientific angle to the belief, then you’ll realize that all that is experienced can only be done so through the nervous system, and all in the nervous system leads to the mind.

Books like “You are the Universe” prove scientifically via complicated yet graspable explanations this.

At the same time, it’s irrefutable that we live in a physical world. It would be rather unwise to believe you can fly and jump off a cliff… You may be in for a surprise.

When it comes though to growing and creating wealth, attracting relationship or sexual partners, and developing your life you’ll realize that the vast majority of it is mental.

In dreams our Minds can instantly manifest anything. In the Physical which we reside in things may take a bit more time to come to you, but they always come.

There’s nothing I haven’t intently pursued that hasn’t came to me. By “intently” I mean that I also held a vision in my mind of receiving it, and persisted until it arrived.

The Great Struggle with this is that there is a certain darkness within- a part of us too trapped in the physicality of life to ever unleash the greatness that can also be found within.

This Darkness is too trapped in what IS and refuses to see what COULD BE. It gets trapped in repetitive thought patterns that prevent you from seeing opportunity. It creates a self-perpetuating circle of darkness.

Other base desires take over such as hunger, desire for sex, and an egoistic drama in how you partake in social life.

One of the greatest triggers of this darkness is fear.

A few days ago I launched a great new project for my business. I spent the past few days exhausted and doing nothing but trying to enjoy life after so much work.

When I checked the results of this project, I instantly felt the Fear and began to worry that my results weren’t good enough.

Despite my extensive training and step-by-step guide to success given by a mentor, I felt fear.

I almost wanted to back out of the project, to end it before more was lost, but then I took a deep breath, relaxed, and began to attempt to see the project objectively.

As I reviewed the data, to my astonishment, some of the metrics I was aiming for I blew completely out of the water!

I was doing much better than I could’ve anticipated.

It’s just that in the heat of the moment I missed my little success, instead focused on the aspects of the project which were less than ideal, and filled myself with fear.

The reality is that things are actually looking great. My project’s KPI may be within closer reach than I imagined!

As I’ve relaxed, and even write this to calm myself down more, I remember my training more and more.

The fearful part of my brain shuts off as the higher consciousness inside me takes over. I remember my plan & path towards my objective, and remember that I had anticipated certain roadblocks like the one I’m experiencing now- but I’m doing better than the average for sure.

All is mental, and mental is all. While we do inhabit a physical world, we interact with this physical world through our mind.

We are vastly limited by our senses, unable to truly see anything objectively. We can approach objectivity but can never truly be objective.

In this way it can be all too easy to fall for the trap of darkness and shoot yourself in the foot before ever taking a step out of the darkness.

With every great goal or project there is a Fear, a great Darkness. It’s not the moments where you feel inspiration that you’ll face the Fear, but instead the moments where you aren’t inspired that determines whether your goal comes to fruition in reality or not.

Your goals & dreams may be closer than you imagine… But you are limited by certain senses and feelings.

I urge you to try relax and find a path to your objective- And stick to it.

I’m walking a path I desperately wanted to walk many years ago. This project is everything to me.

I don’t feel inspired now. I feel slightly uneasy, wondering about the results and my money on the line.

There are doubts, fears, and a Darkness within. But I must walk the path I set out to walk when I was inspired.

And so must you.

All is mental, and mental is all. Yes there is the physical realm, but it only exists because we can perceive the physical through our mind. In the end there is vastly more available in resources than we could’ve imagined- we just have to open our creativity to it, and walk our paths amidst darkness.

You are probably stuck in a bubble

For over 2 years I’ve traveled basically non-stop, with over a dozen countries hit and at least 6 where I spent a month or longer.

The travel community is all about “being open, having new experiences, etc.” But now I don’t think anyone is really traveling- it’s just a bubble.

People may change their location. You can go from Australia to Chaing Mai. However I think a very rare few (1-5%) actually have deep, authentic, local travel experiences.

In reflection on this startling realization, it’s made me think about all of the bubbles that exist in the world.

As it is said in the book Reality Transurfing Steps I-V, we all exist in a separate Universe that is layered on top of each other. The more I’ve traveled & experienced different cultures the more I see this to be true.

We all inhabit the same physical plane but very rarely do we actually leave our little bubble for a new experience.

Let’s dive deep into this by examining my personal experiences from traveling. Stay aware of your own bubbles, and don’t get distracted by my writing about travel. Take the concepts that are important for you.

The Chiang Mai Bubble

Chiang Mai is a popular travel destination, and for good reason. It’s beautiful, things are cheap, and the local culture is welcoming.

With an abundance of hostels, cafes, and restaurants it’s understandable why travelers from all around the globe would wish to come here.

The thing is, most of these travelers fly from all around the world yet never really get out of their bubble!

They all go to the same cafes, restaurants, etc. in the same places, as if to create a “Little America” or “Little UK” or “Little Europe” in Chiang Mai. I’ve observed this in other places such as Bali which had a “Little Russia.”

Is it still traveling? Of course. And if it’s what makes people genuinely happy, then let it be so.

But we must label it for what it is, and that’s simply making a “Little Europe/America” in Asia and not genuinely experiencing Asia for what it has to offer!

In living here for several months now I’ve had tourists tell me all kinds of things about Thai culture and Thailand. They’re so opinionated yet have no real experience.

Perhaps the biggest Western bubble in Chiang Mai has to do with the party scene. All of the Westerners go to a club called “Zoe in Yellow.” Some Thais go there but not often.

I have some Thai friends that go there, and one of them particularly enjoys “hunting” British men. There are several ladyboys and other Thai girls that are there for no other reason than for the western men.

Again this is all totally okay… But it’s not an authentic Thai experience. You minus well go to a club in London or New York and you’ll have basically the same thing.

The demographics of Northern Thailand skew towards a predominantly Thai population (of course). Yet why is that more than 50% of the people in this club are white?

All this club area is an area for the “travelers” and “expats” to hang out.

Is it an authentic travel experience to go to Chiang Mai and hang out only with other travelers & expats? Sure it’s fun, but this is not real Thailand.

Popping the Travel Bubble

A simple 10-15 minute motorbike ride away from this Western-style club is a giant Thai club which has probably 10x more people.

The venue is truly local. As a foreigner, the first thing you’ll notice walking in is that you’re the only foreigner. I went yesterday and besides the friends I took there was not a single other white person there, for example.

The venue is epically insane also- it’s giant, and has ultra-high-quality sound system. There is regular live performances and dances on stage. People actually dance rather than sit around all lame.

It’s actually terrifying walking in. You realize you’re the only foreigner, people are dancing like crazy, there’s an insane live performance- it’s a true local Thai club.

As is the true Thai experience if you’d like to go to the toilet and pee (as a male) you may be shocked to discover that someone is giving you a massage! It is normal in this club to receive a nice shoulder massage as you pee at the urinal (though you should definitely leave a little tip).

How many people who have “traveled” to Thailand know that such a thing is normal? They don’t because all they do is hang around “little Western World” where things are set up just like the West.

I’ve observed this degree of segregation everywhere I’ve traveled. In Bali for example I was shocked to discover that Canggu was primarily European/American, but a simple 20 minute’s ride up North takes you to places so far off the beaten path that people stare at you wondering what you’re doing in their little village.

I can’t help but wonder then: why do people even travel if they don’t really integrate into the local culture or experience anything authentic?

In Asia it is rather easy to see this segregation due to the color of people’s skin. If I hang out in the Santitham area of Chiang Mai I will see only 1-3% white people. If I go to the backpacker area I see 50% white “travelers.”

The thing is Santitham isn’t far from the backpacker area at all. You could walk there or take a super fast taxi.

Another white-ish area is the “Nimman” area in Chiang Mai. You see maybe 20% white people.

You want to know the shocking thing in all this? The epic Thai club is a fucking 10 minute walk from Nimman.

Nothing about any of this makes sense! This astonishing Thai club should have at least 1-5 white people considering its close proximity to an area where about 20% of the people observed are white expats!

Yet they don’t go. Because these “travelers” live in their own bubble.

No one foreign has heard of this club. Not even people who have “lived” here for many months.

Dissecting the Bubble

Now this isn’t meant to be a hate post or anything by any means. I get travel can be exhausting and hanging around people who get you or sticking to familiar delights can be comforting.

Many of these people claim to be traveling though, and there were times I thought I was traveling when in fact I had not.

Sure I saw things, but I didn’t experience anything profoundly different. Too often was I trapped in a bubble. My location changed but not my experience.

Realizing these things have made me question if travel is even worth it- I was going to make that the original post of the title but I instead decided to make this more relatable because the implications of this bubble are greater than I initially realized.

All these “travelers” come here and I watch & listen to them go to the same places over and over. Nothing is profoundly unique about what they are experiencing. They are not experiencing what is local and true.

Again no hate on any of them. And I don’t mean to be racist when I say “white” or “Asians” or whatever. As stated earlier it’s simply an easy determinant of how many foreigners are in a certain area.

It’s just weird, you know? It’s like an invisible force drew a literal force-field around a certain part of Chiang Mai where the “travelers” hang out so that they can’t interfere with the true locals.

A simple 5-10 minute bike ride can take you out of an area with 25% white “travelers” into an area where you are given a second glance for being white (not because people are racist but because it’s obvious you’re a foreigner and people are surprised to see you not stuck in the travel bubble).

The travel bubble is huge. It’s what I’m using as an example for all bubbles that exist in the world!

So many people claim to travel. I’ve claimed to travel. Have I really though? How many people have truly traveled? They go to the same places as everyone else, stay in their little bubbles so much so to the degree that you can literally draw an invisible line in the city to segregate the travelers from everyone else!

Examining My Bubble

In realizing that all is just a bubble, I’ve had some profound reflections on my own life.

First let’s examine my experiences in Bulgaria. I’ve spent about 9 months there and it was often some of the happiest times of my life (excluding the past few months which have been epic).

The longer I stayed in Bulgaria the larger of an “ROI” (return on investment) I had on being there.

By month 9 I was still learning about Bulgarian culture and integrating. Despite having several local friends we were still discovering differences in all kinds of little things.

Compare that to many of the other countries I’ve traveled to where I’ve only stayed for a few days or weeks. It was definitely cool seeing the sights, but it wasn’t a profoundly deep and amazing experience.

It is quite egoic to claim you’ve visited “x number of countries” because it speaks very little of how deep you’ve gone in each country.

Going deep on 2-3 countries is a significantly deeper experience than buzzing through 15 countries on 3 days each, which is what most travelers do.

The great fallacy here is that more countries = more experience. But that’s just not the case.

I’ve also learned this for example with sex. Every guy it seems wants to fuck the most number of girls as possible… But why?

It’s better to have one awesome partner so that the quality of sex is great & consistent rather than 100 terrible partners. Trust me sometimes finally getting in bed with a 10 is not fun (in fact the recent “10” I was with was so bad/weird it really illustrated this truth to me).

To add onto this point I observed that in some places such as Bali I was hardly experiencing any true Balinese culture. It was still a great experience, but I’ve realized it takes months or years to properly experience a country!

The more I’ve traveled, the less opinionated about each place I’ve become. I’ve understood so many nuances in regards to fulfillment in a place that it’s near impossible for me to give any opinion about a place.

Second, I’ve realized that I haven’t hardly lived in the USA. Sure, I’m from the USA. I’ve spent about 19 years worth of time in the USA.

Have I lived there? Nope. At most I’ve probably only truly lived & experience USA for about 1-3 months.

I’m realizing here in Thailand that to properly experience local culture and find deeper fulfillment it’ll take months or years of learning the language, getting local social circles, etc.

In traveling so much I’ve also realized just how contextual fulfillment in a place is- you can be happy anywhere.

Personal Lifestyle Changes

I’ve wrote earlier that I’m slowly down on travel. For the next year I won’t visit any new places and instead only stick to what’s familiar, unless it’s explicitly a vacation with pre-established friends.

After 2 years of constant sight-seeing, it’s become deeply apparent that the most fulfilling experiences were when I went deep, found a lover, had great friends, and a successful daily routine.

This means I’ll only be in Chiang Mai; Sofia, Bulgaria; Montreal, Canada; and Phoenix, Arizona.

I may swing by Bali because I have friends there. I haven’t been to Hong Kong but may go there for a 2-3 day vacation because I’ve 2 great friends there. See those are the only exceptions though.

The truth is that it’s very difficult to travel. It could just be that I’ve traveled enough to get the surface-level experiences out of the way. Who knows.

What I do know is that going deep on places is more important than going wide! In the attempt to experience too many people create their own little bubbles. They say they travel yet experience very little.

Examining All Bubbles

Now this was a lot of writing on travel, but it’s only one example of one of the many bubbles that exist in the world.

As long as you are conscious you are in a bubble it is okay. Most people aren’t though- they think they’ve traveled to Chiang Mai or Bali but hardly have. The deep experiences elude them.

There are many bubbles in the world! There is the financial bubble, self-help bubble, all kinds of bubbles which keep you trapped from moving towards what you really want to.

For example if you’re in a particular fitness bubble you may be held back from legitimately achieving your goals because the bubble thinks in a certain way. They say to do certain things which you unconsciously agree with which in the end hurts you.

The self-help bubble is a big one. People work on “improving themselves” for years yet never actually make progress. They “work on their business” yet never truly cash out.

The “hustle” bubble is an ultra-deadly one. People jerk themselves off on Instagram about how they’ve worked 70 hours… Again, what has truly been accomplished in those 70 horus? Nothing.

The travel bubble is bad if you are not conscious to it because you will think that you’ve traveled when in fact you have only experienced a tiny fraction of what was available to experience. It holds you back from the true beauty & depth that is right there waiting for you to experience.

What Does a Bubble Do?

To summarize clearly, a bubble holds you back by making you think you’re making progress when in fact you are making less progress than what is truly possible- and by a substantial amount too.

Travel bubble: people physically go different places yet stay in their little Western world, going to the same cafes as everyone else which actually aren’t that great (or too expensive). People do this and miss out on experiences which are truly breathtaking, such as the real Thai club described above.

Entrepreneurship bubble: people jerk off about 80 hours per week yet make no real progress. People run around with their heads cut off like chickens. Profit isn’t super hard but it is when you spend 70 hours per week on BS and 10 on important stuff.

Self-help bubble: endless improvement & reading yet no real progress towards the goal (or super slow progress).

Dating bubble: same as above, constantly work on yourself yet never get a girlfriend.

Your bubble: ???

There are many bubbles out there. I have danced intimately with the travel one, especially since I try actively to break out of it.

But what one are you stuck in?

Hit me up and let me know (: