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My New Project: Curing Loneliness

Some of you may have noticed that I stopped writing about digital marketing- instead, it’s about loneliness and conversational skills. 

In today’s post I’d like to cover my new project, what it aims to do, my struggles with it, and my goals for it- publicly. 

I’m considering openly writing on a personal blog my progress with it, to inspire other entrepreneurs, and also hold myself accountable. 

Anyways, here’s everything about the project as well as my struggles. 

The Cure for Loneliness? 

The aim of my project is to “cure” loneliness. This means taking someone that feels 7/10 or greater loneliness, and bringing it down to 3/10 or less- permanently. 

Before I began this journey, I was focused on a lot of B2B (business to business) digital marketing. 

This is great and all, especially because I have one really awesome high-ticket client, but many clients are…. Ugh. Finding great clients takes work. 

In a couple instances I would launch Facebook Ads for clients, only for the clients to not call the leads I got them within a reasonable time frame (24 hours or less). 

Do you remember the ads you saw 5 days ago? I didn’t think so. Yet still these clients were angered that the leads didn’t immediately convert into paying customers after procrastinating on calling the leads despite my explicit orders to call them ASAP (I even setup a system that auto-emails them every phone # IMMEDIATELY). 

Ultimately I just wasn’t feeling too passionate about it, and I’ve known for a while that I’d rather do digital marketing for myself. I’ve developed some great skills, and many people can’t value that, or they have requirements I refuse to fill (ie. showing up at an office). 

I LOVE making Facebook Ads, and it’s something I could easily do for clients that were giving legitimate value to their prospects. However finding great clients like that that also didn’t have a great marketing team already proved difficult. 

I enrolled in a business program, Sam Ovens Consulting Accelerator and it’s taught me a lot. It’s also helped me redefine how I can help people. 

One of the exercises was to ask many of your friends what your strengths & weaknesses are. 

It became apparent to me that most people valued my social skills, which is NOT something that I was born with- I worked hard to develop exceptional social skills. 

I then sought to define what problems teaching my skills would help, and at first I thought it would involve something like teaching how to pick up girls or something, but then I went even deeper: 

“What problem are those guys struggling with?” Loneliness. 

I created a research form, which got nearly 1,500+ responses overnight with little promotion. 

Boom, the project was validated. 

Now the goal of the program is to “cure” feelings of loneliness by addressing the main causes such as: 

  • Logistical skills (ie. learning how to leverage social circles, find groups, etc.) 
  • Self-esteem (increasing confidence, taking action) 
  • Conversational Skills
  • Authenticity (you’ll feel lonely if you aren’t being authentic/purposeful in your life) 

Very quickly I got the first client for the program, and the next person I helped gave me an exceptional video testimonial. 

How the Program Helps People

By addressing the 4 causes listed above, people will naturally stop feeling lonely. 

This is something I’ve done in my own personal life, and something I’ve helped friends & acquaintances with naturally, without asking for payment. 

Right now it involves 12 weeks of 1 on 1 coaching, however I’m finding this to be much more emotionally taxing and exhausting than I had anticipated. Adhering to a stricter schedule is a bit difficult too. 

I knew since the beginning I wanted to create an online version of the program- it’s easier for me, my clients, and everyone involved. They can get a lot of advice quickly, whenever they want, without having to show up to a call. 

The program will also involve group coaching and an online platform, all aimed at helping people to feel connected, purposeful, and authentic. 

Problems & Struggles

Every path in life has its problems, and this path is not unique. This new venture has brought with it some unique problems I had not faced before. 

Calling prospects and people interested in the program is time-intensive, and not yielding the best ROI that I would’ve liked, when considering that I’m also putting in the work to organically get the prospects. 

The program outline is great, but I’ll also have to sit down and spend weeks (or months) recording the online program, worksheets, and other tools necessary. 

I had a virtual assistant that didn’t perform so well, and claimed to work a lot more hours than he possibly could’ve worked considering his result output was ridiculously low. 

Promotion & Testing

The biggest struggle is in promoting & testing the program. I’ve already validated the offer both in terms of form engagement and buying prospects, but now I’d like to validate the online version of the program. 

I’d also like to remove myself from the buying equation, and allow people to purchase via a sales page or webinar instead of having to call with me. This is the only way I can scale up and help more people in the process. 

I’ve struggled with defining how exactly I should promote. Some methods are obvious, like: 

  • Creating YouTube videos (which I’ll do) 
  • Creating FB videos (upload YT to FB as well)
  • Posting on FB, and add friends in mental health support groups to funnel them in
  • Email list, except for writing about this topic
  • Blog / SEO 

However, most of these things are long-term, and harder to quantify. They’re HIGHLY effective, especially SEO & YouTube videos (and then engaging the Email list once it’s built), just now short-term. 

I’d like to find something shorter-medium-term, and I know just what it is, but there leads to the next problem. 

Facebook Ads & Testing Ads

I know I can create great Facebook Ads. Naturally that’s what I want to do, but first I must create the initial offer. 

That’s left me locked, as there are a couple different strategies I could go about doing, all of which are great (but what’s most effective)? 

I’m also trying to figure out the most cost-effective method to test the ads. Herein lies the problem: 

My program is extremely valuable, and I know it helps people. I’m also putting in a TON of time & effort into creating it, and offering other things such as group coaching calls. I intend to price the program to at least $1k, but very likely much more. 

If I run ads for a $1k program, I MUST have a larger ad budget to test. 

For example, I can spend $900 to make 1 sale because that profits me $100. However, I don’t know which ads will work, therefore I’ll have to spend $2,000+ to test in ads, and I might not make anything back. 

There’s a lot of risk involved when testing ads for a high-ticket offer, and I don’t have thousands upon thousands to throw around. 

The SECOND option is to create a low-ticket offer, for example $50 small-version of the program. It could be like the basic fundamentals, or “9 epic conversational tricks.” 

While this program wouldn’t be as profitable, it would more quickly allow me to build an Email list, YouTube channel, and other followings. Why? 

Let’s say I have that $50 offer. I can test with $200 on ads on Facebook, and if I don’t make any money back, that’s totally okay- I only lost $200, so I can refine the offer and then test another $200, repeat until success. 

Do you see the problem here? The $1,000+ offer makes me profit big-time, and it is the true value of the full-scale program, however I do NOT have the budget to test a high-ticket offer with ads, only a small-ticket offer. 

Also, the low-ticket offer would NOT have the goal of making a profit. My goal would be to spend $50 to make $50, thus building an Email list of people that are interested in improving their lives and willing to improve. 

THEN via Email marketing I would sell them on the high-ticket program. 

If I try to sell simply the high-ticket offer, I will likely have to use organic methods to promote it, and if I sell the low-ticket offer, I can use ads (which I’m better at), but then I’ll have to create a longer, more complicated sales cycle to make profit later. 

Long-Term Sustainability 

Another thing that’s been on my mind is whether I should sell the high-ticket program, or create a subscription product on the low-end that offers long-term support. 

For example, create an online program that has continuous video updates for $37 per month. 

This creates long-term revenue streams, as people stay engaged in the course and continuously improving their lives. It also allows me to help more people because more people can join. 

Some course creators such as Mark Manson price their exclusive blog posts + programs as low as $6 per month… BUT it adds up SIGNIFICANTLY when you consider just how many people are subscribed to him! 

I don’t always read his premium posts, and I’ve only gone through one of his courses (the long-term travel one, several years ago), yet I remain subscribed to his program because “it’s only $6 per month.” 

Pick One… or All? 

There are 3 main ideas in my mind with program pricing: 

  • #1 A single high-ticket ($1k+) offer 
  • #2 A low-ticket offer ($50-ish), combined with a high-ticket offer (via Email marketing) 
  • #3 An affordable subscription product ($37 per month or less).

#1 is profitable, probably sustainable for several years, forces people to commit to their improvement, BUT I won’t be able to run ads for it just yet (need to close more deals to reinvest in ads). 

#2 is more work, but allows me to run ads ASAP, which is my forte. However, to make real profit I’ll have to wait longer, and spend more time working on a long-term sales cycle. 

#3 is a proven, sustainable model for long-term success. However, profit will come slower, ads may not initially be profitable, and the cheaper pricing may contaminate the program (in the sense that non-action takers will join then complain about not getting improvements, as the price point isn’t enough to kick them into action). 

Business Mastermind 

I’m not a genius. I’m sharing this publicly to get some feedback on your thoughts on this. 

My goal is to maximize value to customers, change the world, and cure loneliness. I also want to make sure that I create abundance for myself and those involved in the project long-term. 

Of course there will be iterations for down the line, but for getting moving right now… Do you have any thoughts on what’s best? 

If you’re doing any personal development or entrepreneurial stuff, then also hit “reply.” 

I’d like to create a mastermind of people committed to changing the world, improving, and growing a successful business. I’d like we all grow together, so reach out to me if you’re interested in growing (and more importantly, contributing, as we must all give to help each other). 

Excitement & Accountability 

At any rate, I feel very excited. This path is my “true path,” and I’ve known it for a long time. 

I’m writing this in Montreal, Canada. I remember 2.5 years ago at the cafe down the street I was talking to my friend about creating an online course for his art business. 

I was talking too much, but afraid to do what I really wanted. I had created an online store, but turned off the ads too soon (I even made a little profit from some ads!). 

B2B was never for me long-term, at least in the way that I’ve been doing it. Working for clients is great for providing for yourself but it doesn’t give you long-term freedom (unless you’re willing to improve your methods, which I was unwilling to because I knew in my heart THIS path was for me… Maybe it’s for you). 

I’ve always wanted to sell B2C (business to consumer) online, whether it be via a store selling funny T-Shirts (which was a side-hustle I did 2.5 years ago, make some profit, but gave up too soon due to losing money for a hospital visit). 

Now I’m on that path. 

I’m sharing this so ya’ll can hold me accountable to this path. Right after I write this post, I’m deleting all video games… Normally they’re deleted, but since returning to Phoenix I had re-downloaded some. 

Lesson learned (yet again): video games, for me, are an immense, soul-sucking distraction! 

This project is much more fulfilling, I feel better after a day of work than after a day of gaming. 

So, hold me accountable and make sure I change the world. Join my mastermind if you’re on a similar path, and let’s upgrade our lives together (while helping others and providing real value to the world). 

Have a great day, and keep crushing it in your own path. 

Thanks, 

-Michael 

Life, Gratitude, & Clarity

It hasn’t even been a week, but I’ve noticed massive changes in my brain & life since consciously reducing my “distraction addiction.”

Instead of watching endless YouTube videos, I watch none- maybe one, then done.

Instead of putting on my headphones, constantly listening to music or podcasts, I have embraced the awkward elevator talks and boredom.

When I decided for my brain that it could no longer get dopamine from those methods, it has begun auto-optimizing for my other areas of life.

The answers to questions such as, “where do I want to live, what do I want to do for work, what am I passionate about,” etc. keep getting answered. I just feel… clear.

Every morning I used to go down a rabbit hole of bullshit on my phone, wasting several hours.

Now I get up and workout in the morning instead of the evening, and that “morning workout high” is carrying me through the day (this is likely a huge cause of the many benefits I’m experiencing too, re-adjusting my workout schedule).

The coolest benefit is feeling re-inspired to do business & work again.

I bought this expensive business course that is one of the best. When I first went through it, I went through the areas I felt most excited by, not in any order (despite the creator telling you that you MUST go through everything in order for it to make sense).

I went to wek 5’s content, then week 4, then 3, then 2, and then finally 1- but I rushed through week 1, thinking arrogantly that I didn’t need it.

Guess what? I got my ass kicked!

When I was in Bulgaria earlier this year I hustled my face off for a month straight, denying my mental health, social life, and dating life. And I walked away with nothing to show.

How is it that I could experience success sometimes with minimal work (10 hours per week) but then other times when I was pulling in a 10 hour day I had nothing to show for it?

It’s because I didn’t do the boring foundational work that’s necessary in business.

It goes back to “Distraction Addiction.” My brain was so used to constantly being stimulated by bullshit that it couldn’t bare to handle the boring, lame work of business that legitimately creates success.

I had to get knocked down a few times to return to a humble state, realizing just how little I know.

In short, my problem was I was selling things the market didn’t truly need. Yet I was spinning my wheels as if I need better ads, better Emails, better this and better that.

Nope, the fancy marketing tactics don’t work if the market doesn’t want the product.

With my brain fixing itself, I find myself capable of sitting through a boring 1 hour lecture about how to conduct market research. It actually is becoming interesting, perhaps also because I have tried the “succeed fast” way, so now I am humbled to do the real work required to succeed.

Since cutting out my distraction addiction, I’ve picked up a few healthy habits. Here are some of them:

  • Reflection- my brain is naturally reflecting on life, problems, pains, and joys. I am realizing that I don’t need to Google for advice, ask a million people, etc. I can just reflect on my pain and find a solution (that’s not to say it’ll always be that way, but for now it is).
  • Clear thought– my brain is thinking clearer. I can think about complex things and stay focused on a topic for longer
  • Affirmations- I’ve picked up affirmations again
  • Morning Workouts– they suck and are definitely easier in the evening after you’ve loosened up but it’s a great way to wake up and feel awesome
  • Self-Control– in general I feel I have a lot more self-control.
  • Social Acuity– I’m already pretty good at this but it’s getting better. I can handle the discomfort of new social interactions easier
  • Introversion- strangely I’m feeling more like an introvert and capable of being one since this. I don’t need people/girls to stimulate me.

These are no doubt just the surface-level benefits, and more are to come.

Another huge one is that my perception of time is changing. I used to feel like days went by so fast and there was “no time,” but now I feel like there is A TON of time.

For example, a few days ago I went on a date with a girl and we had “only 3 hours” together. But it felt like a long 3 hours (and it was a great date FYI).

I just feel more productive in general, perhaps because you can easily blow away 3 hours on social media/videos just like that, whereas 3 hours spent in the “real world” go by pretty slowly.

Gratitude

My memories feel clearer, too. Suddenly I am able to remember yesterday, the day before, the day before that day, etc. much easier.

With my brain not being constantly stimulated, it’s like it’s naturally sorting out everything in my life. I know I keep writing this and it might sound strange, but you should really give it a try.

I don’t feel like I’m in conscious control of my brain, and that’s OK & GOOD. It’s just a machine processing my life, I’m letting go, not stimulating it with bullshit, and because I’m doing both of those things it’s naturally doing its thing.

I am having moments of immense gratitude + love. Perhaps it’s because I’m 100% here to “experience the moment.”

A few days ago I drove up to the mountain just to enjoy the view, alone. My phone was off the entire way, and I hadn’t been stimulating before.

I felt like crying from joy at the wonderful view. It was magical. I thought to myself, “this is the purpose of life, to experience, to explore, to live in each moment as it is.”

Why hadn’t I felt that way before? Because before I was trying to SNATCH PHOTOS OF EVERY SINGLE FUCKING VIEW & ANGLE.

Isn’t that what we are all doing? We go to some temples or mountains or cool shit and PHOTO PHOTO PHOTO then leave!

Without the excess stimulation, the constant “BOOM BOOM BOOM” of social media bullshit or music or notifications or WHATEVER, I am in the NOW, and in being there feel immensely grateful to experience this life.

I am becoming more aware of… Everything. I’m driving the same roads I do every day, but this time I see new cafes, new restaurants, new secret alleys to explore…

I am remembering my past clearer. Where I came from. Who I am now. Who I am becoming.

I feel immensely grateful for all of the friends I’ve made & the experiences I’ve had all around the world.

Why had I forgotten just how amazing life is? The constant noise from the phone alone caused me to forget, caught up in all the distractions of the little roller coasters.

Yesterday evening I briefly saw a few pics on my IG feed as I was responding to some messages- I saw every smile fake, everything bullshit.

I’m not saying it’s all bad. It definitely has its utilities. But c’mon, I know some of y’all aren’t smiling like you do on your IG feed.

We are masters of the internet world, yet incapable of connecting in person.

I think that disconnecting from my phone is attracting people to me as well. Yesterday after my workout in the park, instead of leaving my headphones on or derping on the phone, I decided to walk around in reality, and smile at people.

A girl said “hello” to me, and we started chatting. I met her friend, and the three of us started walking together around the park.

We spontaneously decided to drive to a temple together, then go to a cafe after. I met more friends of their friends at the cafe.

Also at the temple I made another acquaintance. Because I wasn’t peering through the world via my phone, I made eye contact with someone and we started talking. We exchanged contacts and will get lunch sometime.

The simple decision to exist in reality is connecting me with several other humans, it’s crazy.

Yesterday I met at least 6 new people all because I decided not to peer into my phone. Instead, I woke up to reality, and peered into the eyes of others.

It wasn’t even me that said hello. I did nothing. I just looked and smiled and people came to me.

Yesterday was supposed to be a routine day, but ended up being an exciting adventure of making new friends, exploring temples, and enjoying laughs.

How many opportunities are you missing because you look into your phone instead of the eyes of other humans?

I’m noticing my decision affecting others as well. I mentioned a girl that was so addicted to her phone she couldn’t hardly communicate with me on our first date in my last post.

When she told me when she was free, I asked if she’d be going out with me, or her phone. I put my ultimatum down and she put her phone down, and she went from a “boring phone girl” to a sweet, cute girl I enjoyed being with because I would not accept her phone addiction.

Reflection

Ray Dalio created an epic 30 minute YouTube channel called “Principles for Success” (click the link to view).

My biggest take-away from it, and partly what inspired my anti-distraction-addiction goal now, is his emphasis on reflection in the process of success.

Being clear-minded and free of distractions, I feel my brain processing events, feelings, and thoughts naturally.

The boring 3 minutes I spent waiting for the elevator in my apartment building are no longer stimulated by roaring music + IG notifications. Without that stimulation my brain can, without conscious effort from me, process it.

That right there is why I write so passionately about this! I feel human again! And I am amazed at the fact that I have to try SO LITTLE to become clear about my thoughts & feelings.

There’s very little required of you, too. Just turn your phone off for a day and watch what happens.

Anyways, back to Ray Dalio: I realized that I was charging through life without reflection. I repeated over the past couple years many of my mistakes, and I also lost perspective.

I stopped feeling inspired & grateful to live my life because on IG I constantly saw hot girls + smiles + ultra-fit guys “better than me” (but not actually), and my brain couldn’t think clearly with background music roaring all the time via my headphones.

Now that I’ve given myself boredom time just to reflect, I’m becoming clearer and clearer day by day on my financial goals, travel goals, etc.

And like I keep writing over and over, it requires no conscious effort on my part.

Whereas before I was constantly trying to figure things out, now they are figuring themselves out because my subconscious mind is free to wander!

In Bulgaria earlier this year I remember talking with a friend so anxiously, trying to figure out “where should I live?”

Should it be in America? Bulgaria? Asia? Oh gosh, the anxiety, the complexity!

Now I’m chilled out, I know what I want & need, I don’t need any feedback. I’m not 100% certain yet, but I know the steps I need to take to become certain.

When you wake up to reality, you figure out how you want to live- really.

There have been some uncomfortable emotions. I have some writing this, now. A little emotional pain that I’ll have to go into.

That’s why distracting is so much easier. I could forget these emotions for a minute by opening YouTube. I’m not gonna lie, I have that impulse slightly.

But I choose not to. No more. STOP!

The discomfort needs to be embraced. Life feels long now. One day is… A REALLY long time.

Instead of the days flying by, I’m going “holy shit man 16 waking hours how am I gonna spend all this time???”

I’ll keep you all updated, but I highly encourage you to join me. Turn off your phone. Disable notifications. Be clear. No more music. No more TV, movies, videos, anything. Stare at the wall and discover your true life.

-Michael

Fresh Winds Among Chaos: Upgrading for 2020

Do you want to make 2020 the best year ever? It starts now, by preparing before we all get wasted for New Year’s and spend the first week of 2020 in a hungover daze.

A Fresh Wind Among Chaos

Yesterday I did something out of the ordinary and really incredible:

With my phone off, I went to a low-key cafe, drank coffee, and just sat there. It was quiet. It was boring. I felt restless.

I had my journal in front of me.

Suddenly, I started writing. A lot.

I went from “a bit confused about life” to “extremely clear on what exactly needs to be done, how I feel about things, and where I’m headed.”

It was awesome. You should try it.

I came to quite a few realizations…

But First… A Story

I’m beginning to feel more and more a distaste to our modern technologies.

Today I went on a date with a beautiful girl. She couldn’t keep off her phone for more than 10 minutes at a time.

Minus ten points!

Ugh, it’s really starting to become a problem. And when my hot date hops on her phone, it tempts me to do the same also.

Also, I don’t think I’m boring. I could be wrong. Not all people are meant to mix.

It just seems that you have to dance like a wild monkey more and more to keep people’s attention these days.

I’ll be the first to admit I have a phone problem, but at least I can refrain from whipping out my phone when the conversation hits a 1.7618 second silence!

Dating aside, phones specifically are starting to becoming an annoyance for me.

Turn off notifications, and opening apps becomes addictive because you never know if you’ll have a message or not.

Turn on notifications, and you will get distracted every time you get a new buzz.

There’s no winning this fucking game.

I don’t know about you, but my phone and technology in general has become a problem in my life.

Both in how it’s affected others, but also, how it has affected me…

Embracing the Eye of the Storm

Back to my realizations from earlier. I was in a cafe, phone off, just me, a quiet vibe, and a pen n’ paper.

Just an hour before my moment of clarity, I felt tired, sluggish, confused, anxious, and generally out of it.

I had multiple things I “needed to do,” but for weeks they just couldn’t seem to get done… Which is ridiculous, because even the most time-consuming (extending my visa) would take just 1-2 hours on a bad day (this is Thailand, the most efficient visa extension in the world).

Maybe it was partly due to the coffee… But I can attest now as I write at 23:24 / 11:24 PM having gone over 9 hours without coffee, it’s the non-phone thing.

You see, in that cafe free of my phone, my brain did something a bit strange.

The Self-Solving Puzzle

Hours before that moment in the cafe, I had multiple situations that needed solving.

For example one of the many puzzles I had to solve was whether I should travel to the islands down South, extend my stay in Chiang Mai, visit Bangkok again, or have a really awesome Bangkok girl come up to visit me.

Clouded by endless notifications, YouTube videos, and IG bullshit, my mind couldn’t think.

When I cut off the madness, powered myself with coffee, and just sat there, SOMETHING solved everything for me.

My unconscious brain (or something) beautifully solved every problem without a single conscious thought from me!

I still marvel at that moment- I just fucking SAT THERE with a PEN AND PAPER, primed my unconscious mind with “I need this solved,” and then magically the ideal solution came to mind!

With the solution clear, my next steps became obvious. I created a simple action plan for the rest of 2020 as to my travel situation.

I also became clear as to my emotions regarding Bulgaria, Thailand, USA, where to live, all that good stuff (more on that later, plus more goodies for you).

Peace as the Default?

I’ll list some of the other realizations I had in a moment. Something else magical happened.

This newfound clarity brought with it a sense of wonder & joy. Then looking at the cafe, I noticed the paintings, subtle design elements, and other nuances that went unnoticed due to the phone capturing my attention!

In Thailand there is a BTS station called “ASOK,” which translates to “without sadness,” roughly speaking.

By just sitting there, I felt “without sadness.” I wasn’t particularly happy, but at peace, I was.

Why do I so desperately feel the need to be entertained by YouTube?

For the first 5 minutes it is more painful to just sit there, but the next hour is filled with wonderful peace, a sense of wonder, and extreme mental clarity!

Removing the Gas Pedal

I am reminded of a lesson I learned on a spiritual blog I used to read when I was 14 or 15 or 16 or something.

The author at www.calmdownmind.com wrote on one article something along the lines of:

“The mind is like a moving car, and when you meditate, you are taking your foot off the gas pedal. The car does not instantly stop moving, for it has inertia. With time, this car will begin to slow, and then stop. You will have the inner peace you’ve always had.”

This really is what I can see happening within myself!

Sometimes I feel compelled to watch YouTube because the content is truly fascinating. For example, I LOVE “Ownage Pranks.” Every week he releases a hilarious new video!

But other times I watch out of boredom, or a craving, or I even start from a good place but then find my way down the rabbit hole. You know, when you start at 9PM, and next thing you know it’s 2AM.

I’m finding more and more that for my own mental health it is often better just to sit and do nothing.

At first I may have some uncomfortable/derpy thoughts that I don’t like being with.

More often I may have some uncomfortable emotions. For example, I may have just been around someone I do not like.

What I’ve learned is when you just sit there in awareness, and feel, let go, relax, you often end up letting go of whatever it is that bothers you.

The first few minutes (or dozen minutes) suck… Don’t get me wrong. It feels much better short-term to pop over to YouTube.

Long term? Sitting there, literally doing nothing feels so much better!

The Solutions Come From Within

It seems that most of the answers I need come from within. There is no research that needs to be done, second opinions required, or data needed.

I just need to reflect- and perhaps so do you- and let the unconscious mind sort itself out.

This spiritual talk is rather practical. It’s simple: when you stop feeding your brain with new bullshit, it can sort out everything it has already taken in!

Some Of My Realizations

As promised, I’d like to share a few of the realizations that I had, as an example of what’s possible.

First, I figured out what my travel plans should be for the rest of 2020. I will remain in Chiang Mai until Dec 15, spend a couple days in Bangkok, then return to Phoenix.

In Phoenix I will decide what to do next, after first spending a little time with family + friends.

Currently it looks like I will either acquire a visa for Bulgaria, or live half my time in Thailand and half my time in Bulgaria for 2020.

Second, I realized how I truly feel about various things/places/etc.

For Bulgaria, I love the city of Sofia and how it’s laid out. I hate the customer service and general selection of products (not so good for business, shopping, cafes, etc.).

But what’s best about Bulgaria are my friends there. It’s easy to stay connected with them also because of the way Sofia is designed. The parks are incredible too.

Third, I’ve become a lot more aware of my financial situation and just how far behind I would’ve liked to be by now.

There were other, secret realizations. The most important thing you should take-away is that the experience made me feel CLEAR!

MANY answers came to me! I did not need to search online for the answers, ask friends or random people, or DO anything but SIT in a QUIET PLACE with NO DISTRACTIONS.

By feeling more clear now on what I want, I feel that I need to better optimize my time. I want to make sure I live every minute authentically chasing my goals or living fully, not derping around on YouTube…

And the Biggest… My Addiction: YouTube

The biggest realization is that I have a severe functional addiction: the phone/technology/YouTube.

I listed a few different things because it has shape-shifted over the years.

Sometimes I was indulging in video games. For example, in mid-2018 I once played Fortnite for like… 12 hours straight. Ugh, imagine if I had WORKED 12 hours straight- that’d probably be one new client!

Other times it was Reddit. Reddit is particularly toxic, with a high potential for drama. There are a few golden nuggets, but you need thick skin… And it’s a rabbit hole even if you never post.

Sometimes it’s even just going down an internet rabbit hole. 5 hours went by, I’ve researched a lot, but I have nothing to show for it…

MOST of the time, it was YouTube. It’s always been YouTube to an extent.

For nearly a decade since YouTube’s birth I can recite my fascination and enjoyment of YouTube.

When I was in Middle School (age 11-14), I recall watching YouTube on my iPod 4 (remember that?).

I distinctly remember my first favorite YouTube channel “MinnesotaBurns.” He would play Call of Duty and “troll” people. It inspired me to do the same, and cause a lot of havoc on Xbox + PC games.

Over the years I watched all types of content: informational, pranks, funny, sad, motivating, SO many different things.

At certain periods of my life, it was net-positive. In fact, I believe that of all the social media networks, YouTube has HIGH potential for positivity due to its educational + uplifting nature.

At age 14 I became inspired to become more socially confident + get girls, setting me on a path that would inevitably lead me towards self-development, and then business, creating my current “digital nomad” life!

Sometimes I watched YouTube to cope, like when I was sad, needed a friend, or even just needed some inspiration.

Anyways, let’s cut the story. You probably have a similar one.

Somehow over the years I began to watch more and more, sometimes addictively, sometimes not so additively.

It wasn’t a problem when I was 16 to indulge until midnight in hilarious videos. Or to watch YouTube while eating a meal.

Now, it is. Something has changed either in the platform, or how I use the platform.

The Dangers of the Internet (Particularly YouTube)

Please note that I’m not personally attacking YouTube. I love it. It’s still incredibly useful!

What I’m writing applies to the internet in general- Twitter, IG, Facebook, Blogs (like mine, too), YouTube, etc.!

Somehow over the years it became harmful. I watched a little too much. I began to crave it, like an addict.

And I have time. We all have time. So I gave in. I still worked, achieved my goals, whatever.

But instead of watching it because it was truly the best thing to do at the time, I began to watch it to “pass the time” out of boredom. I wanted to “get to the future.” Or the pull was just too intense!

Now it’s not all bad. For example, it sure is nice when waiting in airport queues to watch a nice, funny video to lighten things up.

However it’s also just as easy to open up YouTube when you’re eating a nice, delicious meal.

Just last week I was eating some incredible Italian food (the diversity here in Thailand is amazing!) yet I felt myself compelled to watch YouTube while eating.

I believe that is a key marker of an addict… Right?

At the very least, WHY?!? The flavors of the meal were wonderful!

Why did I need to also watch a YouTube video? You can only focus on one thing, the video or the food. So as I watched another video, my meal disappeared and all that remained was the good after-taste of it all.

In watching YouTube during my meal, I robbed myself of the great experience of enjoying that meal!

And fucking everyone is doing this now! For you it’s Facebook, for her it’s Instagram, for him it’s Twitter- but it’s fucking SOMETHING.

Walk into a restaurant and tell me what you see these days. It’s awful. It’s becoming a massive problem. We’re forgetting how to… Human.

Date Resistance

And I can see in myself too these negative effects spreading EVERYWHERE.

I am dating a great girl here in Chiang Mai. But when I first met her, I prematurely judged her.

The first 30 minutes of our first date were not particularly exciting. Like all first dates, it was slightly awkward, we struggled to find a good conversation topic + flow, etc.

A part of me was thinking “maybe I should just leave after drinking my coffee.”

Thank goodness I didn’t! After an hour we found our connection, went to the waterfall, ate delicious Thai food, and then enjoyed some exciting times together.

This is a dangerous time, instant gratification from YouTube for me and perhaps something else for you makes it tempting to “dip out” of awkward encounters with new people because it’s more pleasing short-term to derp-out to that little screen of yours!

The girl I went on a date with today lost a bit of my respect with her obsessive phone usage.

Emotional Turmoil

One time I went to eat at a restaurant- a delicious fruit bowl. I felt so compelled to whip out my phone while waiting for my meal, but I decided against it.

I realized I felt emotionally bad. Why?

I was previously hanging out with someone I did not like! It was draining.

So I sat there with my feelings, and soon they dissolved. Then I felt better, and could eat my fruit bowl with full attention.

My mind now is so tempted to whip out YouTube every time I feel bad, or am bored, or whatever… But this just builds up the pain as it never gets processed.

An Unclear Mind + The Last Unknown

And as I have written so much about already, my mind doesn’t feel clear.

That simple exercise of just fucking SITTING and DOING NOTHING allowed my uncoscious mind to lay out a VERY clear path up to 2020, as well as an “if-then” system for deciding my 2020 plans!

There is one last unknown- what I’d like to do for my work. Should I keep doing what I’m doing, develop an online course, switch niches, etc.?

I don’t know yet. But I know how to find the answer now.

The Ticking Clock

Worst of all, the clock is ticking. Tick tock, the clock.

How much time have I wasted in 2019 alone to bullshit internet stuff? Is it really okay to indulge “even just a little?”

Sure, maybe a little is okay. I dated this girl earlier this year and we played Minecraft together one time for a while.

That was a ton of fun. It was an exciting experience to combine a pretty girl with one of my favorite childhood games.

I guess what’s most important is defining what kind of life I really want to have- and I ask you too, what kind of life do you want to live?

I do concede that playing video games with some real life friends (ie. laptop meeting at a friend’s place) can be a lot of fun. It’s a shared experience with friends.

But doing it alone? Not fun. It’s just a distraction from doing the necessary yet hard or boring tasks needed to live a great life.

Meeting new friends is awkward and annoying. It’s a lot easier to whip out that phone or play that online game short-term.

But the growing pains of such a task is necessary, otherwise you will be faced with greater long-term pain.

Ultimately what scares me is just how much time, and thus progress, I have lost in 2019 already.

Already the idea of quitting YouTube even for a month (and limiting other network usage) is terrifying. That feeling is the end of the delusion of it not being that much of a problem.

The fact is I have NOT made the business progress I intended to make earlier this year.

The biggest business thing I learned this year was that, as quoted by Sam Ovens:

“People don’t have business problems. People have personal problems that show up in their business.”

I’m filling my mind with derpy YouTube bullshit. Even the self-help stuff I listen to nowadays is highly unnecessary! I don’t need anymore “information.” I need to chill and take some proper action.

As above, so below. With a derpy mind comes derpy work. It needs to end.

Even if this is not true, the fact is that dedicating 50% of my YouTube/video game time this year alone would drastically change my business & financial life.

The clock is ticking. I do not want to live my life on YouTube, and the negative effects are extending farther out than just the time I waste on YouTube.

A New Path Forward

The phone has got to go. Yet I can’t. It’s too valuable to throw away, it’s necessary in our modern times.

The mind needs to be upgraded. I need to upgrade for 2020, as I would encourage you to do as well.

I could write for so much more about the dangers of the internet, distraction-addiction, YouTube, video games, whatever.

At this point, the message should be more than clear: it’s a huge waste of time, and boredom has its merits.

I want 2020 to be the best year ever, and I know that starts with taking back control over my mind.

As demonstrated to me in my no-phone chilling at a cafe with a pen n’ paper, a whole lot is possible of the mind I never knew to be possible.

The conscious ego need not do anything. Just relax, chill out, and wait for the solutions to be solved from your unconscious mind. Then act.

I am resolving now to vastly reduce my internet derp time, and instead replace it with productive action, meditation, or just chilling out.

Many of my goals are not where they need to be, and I can see now it’s not that I didn’t work hard enough- it’s that my energy, time, and attention were being crippled by the wrong things.

“Sam Ovens” also has another amazing business quote:

“It’s not about playing to your strengths, but about fixing your weaknesses.”

I can clearly see this to be true. My great mind (as is yours) is useless if polluted by internet nonsense.

Most of all, your time here is limited. Even as I secretly hope for “Immortality” I know that it is unlikely, and thus every moment must be optimized for success or fulfillment.

This means actively making new friends, nurturing current friends, meeting dating partners or actively dating, working out, eating right, working on the business / income, OR if not moving towards a goal, actively enjoying life by exploring, hanging out, napping, ANYTHING that is TRULY fulfilling.

This is the beginning of my new path: a life free of the hooks of the internet.

I’d like to free up my time from the internet (excluding work-stuff or legitimate research), and live REAL LIFE!

No more derping for endless hours on YouTube, mindlessly scrolling on IG, or ending up on some silly internet rabbit hole.

Time is too precious to waste. There’s a whole lot to create.

What do you think about all this?

Let me know. (:

Thanks,

-Michael Keller

Demon Humans: Protecting Yourself From Hell on Earth

I’d like to think that the vast majority of people on Earth are good- that it is only bad situations which turn them dark, and that darkness is but a passing moment, not them.

But even in such optimistic beliefs, it is impossible not to deny the darkness that lies within some of the walking demons here on Earth.

These people- demon humans- are in reality as they are described figuratively. Let one into your life and you can expect hell on Earth.

The thing about demon humans is that it’s the smart ones you have to be afraid of, or at least the ones that are “more normal” but still corrupted.

The less intelligent demon humans will go rob a bank, or commit some crime that gets them locked up rather easily. These are the obvious dangers we should fear.

It’s often visible who these people are very early on, and their vibes are powerfully potent- it doesn’t take long around them to feel a sense of danger so strong that even those most disconnected from their intuition know logically this person needs to be cut out.

The ones you should fear are those that you’ll never know are a demon until weeks, months, or years later.

These walking demons are “more human” on the scale from hell to heaven. They will have friendships, relationships, successes and achievements, and be “okay enough” to get by in society.

What I am describing by using the term “demons” are those crimes committed by humans that are not legally criminal- instead those humans that’ll ruin your life in every other way.


It is illegal to punch you in public, but it is not illegal to make you fall in love with someone, get you very attached, then cause you emotional hell, destroy your self esteem, and take everything you’ve got and leave you dry.

These demons are not just romantic either (but the romantic ones receive the most press)- they can be friends, co-workers, bosses, clients, anyone!

What makes someone a demon?


A demon will typically be a narcissist, have machiavellian tendencies, be a psychopath, be extremely bipolar (and take it out on you), or have some other mental illness that hurts not just them but torments those around them.

Remember it is a grey scale. Most people are not black n’ white. There is a degree of psychopathy, a degree of narcissism, etc.

The grey zone is what we need to be careful of. Those that are clearly dark will be shunned from society rather quickly, or commit a crime that sends them to prison.

The grey zone people (or even some of the smarter darker ones) will make you feel amazing- they will be charming, loving, or have only a few red flags.

We all have our personality quirks, right? How do you distinguish between a quirk and darkness?

The point of this post is not to write about all of the red flags because there are many, and I am no expert. I’ve just had a few experiences, done a bit of research on the “dark triad” and other personality type theories, and in integrating the knowledge + experience have become more naturally aware of what’s going on with the people around me.

These days I am more cautious. I am more guarded. I carry a big smile, yes- you must be enthusiastic with everyone you meet as to not turn off the good people.

But I don’t let anyone get too close for some time now. When a girl wants me to commit to her, I wait. I tell her this too, and remind her that she doesn’t know me either (if we’re being completely honest, we all have a little darkness within).

I am careful to tell details about my work, my life, my weaknesses, to anyone who might be able to abuse it. I do not have roommates, and do not intend to have roommates for a long time.

Sounds like a lot- sounds like I’m being paranoid, but if you met me, you’d never know that I think this. You’d probably assume I’m naive and giggly with joy.

Like I said you can’t turn off the many great people in this world being afraid of the few evil ones. You just have to be careful in how you approach any new person.

I will be giving, abundant, happy, free-flowing, all that without paranoia. No need to not enjoy an interaction- there are some “demons” I’ve met with whom I smile and talk when they are there within a group, because there is no other choice and because they still have a little light within ‘em.

The key thing here is to not give too much or to be naive. Give people the benefit of the doubt, but don’t trust them with your wallet until they’ve earned it- you get what I mean?

The thing you need to realize too is that the high-functioning “demons” (ie. sociopaths and narcissists) will not be recognized as such by everyone.

We all scream evil at the atrocities committed by those in the great wars, but few will see you getting backstabbed by someone you thought you could trust.

This is the great dilemma here- you can’t necessarily scream “demon” and cut the person out if they hurt you, or if they are presenting extremely red flags. Other people will jump to the demon’s back because the demon has only been given to them; the demon has not backstabbed them… Yet.

You need to be attentive to red flags when meeting new people without cutting them out too soon. There are good people with a few dark sides that deserve to be trusted and cared for, and whom you can rely on, but there are also bad people with a very good side.

All I can do is point you in the direction of learning about narcissists, sociopaths, and all that- it’s rather fascinating, and you no doubt will have stories of your own!

In the end there is almost always red flags. People’s true natures come out somehow before that “epic event” which ruins it all. In some rare cases there are perhaps no red flags, but in many there are.

You should trust your intuition too- sometimes you just get a feeling of “oh wait this person is not right.” Leave, and give it time.

Other times you may be lacking in a certain way (ie. business connections, dating connections, etc.) and feel that you are stuck with that person.

This has happened to me when I was moved to a new city. Because high-quality, socially intelligent people don’t hangout with narcissists and other “demons,” they cut out demons…

Thus making the demons easier to meet. You’re looking for new friends, and they’re constantly getting cut out so… They find you!

Other times the narcissist is super high-functioning, capable of love-bombing some people and making some connections. In these cases it’s also tempting to stay in their life because of what they have to offer.

Or the narcissist may have certain necessary skills for business. In these grey zone situations, there’s almost always SOME value or slightly good side that makes it hard for you to cut out the otherwise toxic person.

These are the situations I wish to raise awareness for! If someone is 100% rotten you will know obviously- you don’t need intuition to tell you because it’ll be screaming and your mind will see clearly what’s going!

It is those situations that are grey where it’s dangerous.

They’re nice for a month then start acting up. Is it you, did you mess up? Maybe you hurt them?

They’ve got massive value to offer, but there’s a sense they’re taking a bit too much. Maybe you aren’t that valuable after all?

They praise you when you please them, but as soon as who you are isn’t in total alignment with them, they criticize you harshly. Maybe they were right?

The sex is so good, and he or she is nice “BUT……”

The “friendship” was strong for 5 months, when “SUDDENLY…..”

These people may not even be aware that they are doing such toxic things, and good people also make some of the same mistakes that narcissists and demons make.

That’s why it’s so hard to figure out who is who! The good person will make a mistake, be genuinely sorry, and then make sure it doesn’t happen again

The bad person will make the mistake and then do anything it takes to get you back, disregarding your feelings at the same time.

It’s hard to distinguish between the two. That’s why I’m raising awareness for this to you.

One scary thing about learning about this is seeing those negative patterns and behaviors in yourself.

You may come to find YOU are a bit dark in some ways, and that you need to fix it. Although the pain of others will hurt a ton, it is even more difficult to recognize the darkness within yourself and heal it.

“Oh shit… Maybe I was a little manipulative. Maybe I acted the wrong way and hurt him/her because of that way. Maybe it wasn’t ALL their fault.”

Confronting my own darkness in the demise of my last serious relationship was the hardest thing to do.

Strangely enough, it doesn’t hurt that much. The pain from others will be more painful, but to just see what YOU did is worse.

When you become aware of your darkness, it almost instantly dissolves into light. The hardest part of your own personal transformation is complete. The first step, and hardest, is to see.

In the future you will not be so easily capable of those dark acts, for you will know that they hurt others, and even more hurt your own honor and integrity.

You can’t be dark because you are aware, and to be intentionally dark in awareness is true evil.

You’ll notice the pull of darkness when it comes. You’ve read the articles. You’ve reflected on your past. You will stay aware, and burn the darkness into light.

This is your inner transformation, and without the inner side of this path you will remain a victim to the darkness within others. Darkness finds darkness.

You may not be evil like a demon, but it is still that trauma and pain within that attracts you to the darkness of others.

Those that are light, that are free, happy, socially intelligent, and abundant in their lives can cut out so quickly those people that are not good for them.

It is only those that are desperate and in pain themselves, or also dark, that will miss the red flags the demons wave as they plunge their knife into your gut or your heart.

Ultimately remember that in cutting people out you are doing everyone involved a favor.

You are no longer feeding their darkness. You are taking care of yourself. You are opening a space for good people to come into your life- good people who might genuinely need your support and love!

You will become more abundant and light and happy, and be able to spread more lightness to others…

But it all comes down to that single choice to be aware. To observe the actions of others and even more importantly the actions of yourself.

Those that are good in your life treat well- and those that are not, no need to be dramatic. Smile and move on. Be authentic if they ask, but be careful not to get sucked into battle.

Know that darkness exists, even among so much light. Research narcissism, sociopaths, all that stuff! They are in prison, but they are also walking among us.

It is a crime to physically destroy someone, but not emotionally. So be careful those that hurt your emotions, and be daring in taking care of yourself.

You are an adult now. We all are. No one can take care of you but you. The fate of your own life rests on your shoulders from now on.

Armed with this awareness, I hope that you go out and take care of yourself. Be light, heal yourself, and free yourself of the chains others tie onto you!

Thanks,

-Michael

Embracing Freedom as a Lifestyle

Recently, I believe that one of the most dangerous words in the English language is “should.”

In many ways it is egoic, guilt-filled, and you “shouldn’t” force yourself into undesired action with the word “should.” Yet this is how we are trained as kids.

This past year has been filled with epiphany and personal growth, and one recent lesson I’m about to share with you is embracing freedom as a lifestyle- and removing “should” from my vocabulary, except when absolutely necessary.

For example, in my recent dilemma of whether I should go to Thailand then USA or straight to the USA I had in my mind that I “should” go to USA because “that was the plan” and “I am American and thus should try out living there.”

Note that I “must” (should) leave Bulgaria because of my visa expiring- that is a practical, truthful use of the word “should.”

But the second use- that I “should go” to America- was not fair to myself and let to an egoic split within my mind that made it harder to follow what my heart really wanted to go, which was to go to Thailand.

Eventually I came to the conclusion (thanks to the support of some friends) that it would be wiser to go to Thailand, and save my “mind energy” for dealing with the logistical issues of Thailand such as the difference in time zone, instead of living somewhere I don’t truly want to live!

Another example of this (and even better) is last night I was at a party. I wasn’t sure if I should go or not as I was feeling tired and a bit sad to be leaving Bulgaria.

I ended up going, and was having a blast. I then decided to leave, when some friends came together and one suggested we go to a club playing some great electronic music.

My mind said “I should go home and get some rest.” So when we left, I promptly excused myself and started walking home.

During my walk home I began to feel this sense of nagging… My heart was saying “no, let’s go to the club and party all night.”

Keep in mind North American readers, this was at 2 or 3 AM, and clubs in Bulgaria go until the sun rises! When I say “party all night” I mean literally party until 5 or 6 in the morning.

During my walk I reflected on this feeling- I asked myself, “Why should I go home?” No answer came up.

I was saying that I “should” go home because it’s “healthier,” but I also had nothing to do all day Saturday! If I stayed out, I could sleep in as late as I want, and allow myself to recover.

Furthermore I loved the party, the group of friends, and my days in Bulgaria are numbered. Why not enjoy some time at an awesome Bulgarian club?

I turned around and went back to the club, and partied past 5 AM. It was a ton of fun. The music was great, the dancing awesome, the club filled with great vibes and attractive women.

Today (the next evening) I slept in late, ate some food, drank coffee, and I feel good.

Deep down I know that had I eaten a sandwich then went home at 3AM, I would’ve been more tired than staying up until past 5 AM partying with no food. I could feel it in my heart.

When you follow your heart, you are gifted with more energy than is required to do what you want to do.

I feel incredible today- why? I should, by all standards, be more fucked up… But I’m not. I lived authentically. I’m not hungover, despite being hardly able to walk straight earlier today at 5AM.

Today I was talking with an awesome friend I made via a mutual friend about life stuff- travel, where to live, adventure, our jobs, dating, all that stuff.

She was very authentic and down to Earth, and in being in that energy field it made me reflect on my own lessons that I’ve been learning and applying in life.

For example, she had a very specific type of guy that she liked- and she was totally okay with that.

Deep down I know that I’ve felt more attracted to Asian girls and Bulgarian-looking girls, but I never admitted it publicly. I always felt some discomfort in admitting it.

But part of embracing freedom as a lifestyle is in being okay with the way you are. You have to know who you are, and what you want, and when you know that, you should just go for it.

Don’t over-complicate things with the whole “should.”

I had a friend suggested I live in Las Vegas to “learn how to pick up girls,” but what’s the point in going all the way there? It’s just a useless “should.” I know that what I like is in Eastern Europe + Asia, why “should” I follow a path to there?

In reflection, it is actually strange to not have a type, in the dating example. Most everyone I’ve met has common denominators in all of their past partners.

Yet due to society we feel scared to admit it. We don’t want to admit what we like or want, and thus we never chase our true dreams and goals. We get stuck in the loop of “should” rather than truly living our authentic lives!

When I write, I am thinking of the YouTuber Nomad Capitalist who says something along the lines of:

“Go where you’re treated best.”

He was saying this in reference to other countries in which you can enjoy a better cost of living, but also where you might actually be treated better in certain regards.

When examined though, and in a deeper video upon his life quote, it is revealed that the meaning of this is to be completely free. Just follow your dreams, your heart, whatever you want to do.

Stop worrying about other people, or getting stuck in the egoic notion of “should.”

It should be said also that this also means being careful about creating unnecessary life steps for success in your life.

The biggest example of this I can give is that sometimes people recommended that I go to a certain city for a certain thing, but the two things are vaguely related.

Example: “you should go to XYZ City because it’s great for business… Or because you can network, etc.”

People have suggested to me to move to a certain city or check it out just because the city has made a loose association with business or the type of work that I do.

This is a huge way I see people fucking themselves up- when I’ve observed friends doing these things, they usually shoot themselves in the foot.

Now, I’m not saying that moving to a new city doesn’t carry certain benefits. Obviously if Asian girls is your thing Asia is better than Eastern Europe, so on and so forth everywhere.

What I am saying is when there’s not a clear-cut statistical relationship between two data points and you make a decision on that, that’s basically just you creating extra steps in your life for no reason.

Some people say that Sofia, Bulgaria is not that good for business. Often times I am believing this as well- I would likely not have clients here as they can’t afford my rates, and when it comes to the EU you minus well sell to countries like Germany, Sweden, or Finland that are much more abundant.

However in reflection we can see that my work is online, and thus I can work from anywhere. I could have German clients but live in Bulgaria, or American clients and live in Thailand.

The biggest problem with this is that I am in a different time zone, and also unable to meet people in person. These are the two biggest disadvantages to such a thing, which are real, measurable disadvantages.

Does that mean I should move to another city? I don’t know, but I don’t think so.

There are ways to overcome this problem that allow me to maintain my life of freedom and adventure. There are still clients that I can close, and remote work is starting to become the norm slowly but surely.

In short, what I’m trying to describe here is that a loose association between two cities (ie. New York and business) is often made in people’s minds, and then people make decisions based on that when in reality they might be able to succeed in business (or whatever) right where they are.

This is the hardest “should” to overcome because as I mentioned earlier there are several cases in which moving to a new city will have tangible benefits.

Again Asia has Asian girls, if you’re into that. Moving out of the Middle East provides you with a safer political environment, as another example. These are tangible benefits associated with moving.

But many people confuse tangible benefits with general associations that are drawn up, so people say they “should” go here or there or do this or that when in fact they have not personally measured whether this particular action will tangibly help them!

Just Be Free

It sounds almost ridiculous to write those 3 words as you’ve seen similar stuff everywhere, but when actively applied it is completely true- and I understand it can be harder to apply at some times over others.

There are societal pressures, your own ego, friend pressures, family pressures, etc. but ultimately you have to follow your own path in life.

This is the big mindset shift that I’ve been making in 2019, and it’s been reconnecting me with the original dreamer I had inside me in 2017. In 2018 I took a slightly different path that was necessary for my growth, but now I’m finally coming full circle, integrating both sides of the coin.

If my heart decides that I should live in Thailand and not in the USA, then I should just follow that- I can always check out USA later! Same is true for Bulgaria.

No need to overthink it or burden myself with “shoulds.” You should (pun intended) save the shoulds for when they’re genuinely necessary, ie. I must leave Bulgaria because my visa is expiring and if I don’t leave there will be trouble.

If you want to work a certain job, just do it. If you want to go somewhere, go there. If you want to date a certain type, then just date that type and stop holding yourself back from what you truly want deep down!

Last night I really wanted to party- I wanted to party like that for a long time, but every time the opportunity came up I passed it up with a “I should rest” or some other bullshit. But no, I wanted to party. So I did it. And now I feel better, I feel more energized than had I gone home at 2 or 3AM like all the other nights!

To live this life of freedom, you have to know who you are and what you want. Then you need to just take steps for getting what you want.

I know that my heart enjoys living in Bulgaria & Thailand, so I’ll just live there. If my heart decides to live in the USA, I’ll do that- but for a large part of the past year it’s been a “mind thing” to want to go back there- it’s been something in my mind, not my true, authentic & free self!

There are still places I want to travel and adventure, and living in Thailand and/or Bulgaria make it easier to do so. It’s cheaper, why spend more and have to work harder when my heart wants to live out here anyways?

Like I said I might later this year be “all in” for the USA- or I might not. But I’m writing this now both to you and to me, just to follow your damn fucking heart.

Live a life of freedom! Go for what you want! It’s okay to have a dating type, or want to go somewhere, or create a business or whatever.

Stop bogging yourself down with “should this should that,” when really you SHOULD just follow your heart and make it into a reality.

As sad as I am to leave Bulgaria, I feel excited to head back to wild Bangkok and beautiful Chaing Mai. I’m highly considering- especially if I get a girlfriend- to skip attempting to live in America, and instead just fly back for the holidays then back to Thailand… Or even just stay there during?

There are other things I’ve considered doing out of the norm recently, such as playing video games or going skydiving. Instead of rationalizing these things away, I’m now embracing the freedom lifestyle, and saying “why not?”

“Why not?” is such a powerful thing to ask because it reveals just how silly your rationalizations actually are.

One way or another, just do what you want. Stop complicating things. Follow your heart! Be free and happy!

Finally, I will add that this doesn’t mean neglecting important responsibilities such as your finances- it’s wiser then to reflect on these things so that your heart truly wants it.

When I live more in tune with my heart, I feel more motivated to work harder and longer because I’m actually producing wealth to spend and save for things I genuinely want to do!

What does your heart want?

Go follow it (:

Thanks,

-Michael Keller